Back in 2015 I played the game "Gone Home" for the first time. It had a huge impact on me and it introduced me to riot grrrl. It's a genre that I have loved immensely ever since. Bands like Bratmobile, Bikini Kill, and Heavens to Betsy mean a lot to me. I had this album on repeat in high school. As I get older, I appreciate it even more. = I LOVE this one  Nothing Can Stop Me  Decide  Stay Away  Calculated  Waitress Hell  Intermission 247 Axeman Donating My Body To Science  Terrorist   Complicated  White Girl  Paralyzed  CALCULATED HEAVENS TO BETSY Nothing Can Stop Me If I show you that I'm alive If I show you I've got feelings inside If I show you that I'm not perfect Then will you know that you can hurt me? But if you think That I'm not strong You best watch out Nothing can stop me I read your words and cry You betray my trust a million times Poison my life with lies You victimize, victimize, victimize, you victimize But if you think That I'm not strong You best watch out Nothing can stop me I got a heart that's true I got some things I must do I know that everything's fucked up I am not ever gonna shut up But if you think That I'm not strong You best watch out Nothing can stop me Not you, not you (Nothing, you can't stop) Not you, not you (Nothing, you can't stop) Nothing, you can't stop Nothing, you can't stop But if you think That I'm not strong You best watch out Decide Do you wanna get married baby? Is that that the way he said it? Is that the way you asked him? I know you have to live your life and I live mine But when I think about it, it still makes me want to cry I will decide my life I will decide this time No man is gonna rule my life, she said I will decide my life Make a million promises that you won't keep Holding on boy-girl, I'm dying in my sleep Wait for something different Holding on to nothing else but him, him, him, him, him I will decide my life I will decide this time No man is gonna rule my life, she said I will decide this time Waiting on forever, waiting on tomorrow Waiting on a fairy tale You can get rid of all of those traps that they have set around you But can you get rid of that seed they planted in your head? I will decide my life I will decide this time No man is gonna rule my life, she said I will decide this time Is he a real prince charming? Is he really worth it? All those things I saw you give up I wait, I wait for a happy ending But I could never say goodbye Stay Away I saw the way you looked that day I saw the way you looked at me I know the things you want from me I know the things you take from me My love, my life, my words, my heart My innocence is torn apart I'll never trust a word you say You're just a bad memory Stay away Stay away Stay away Stay away I feel the rain as it comes down I feel like I am being drowned You always sit and watch me die A fuckin' fuckin' million times I want, I want, I want to know Does anything touch you anymore? Or are you rotten inside? I wish that you would just die Stay away Stay away Stay away Stay away Do you think that this is for you? Do you think that I'd do anything for you? Do you think that I adore you? Do you think that this is for you? And I still breathe, I'm still alive There's things you can't take inside My love, my life, my words, my heart Are things that you can't take apart Oh, I could do this a million times I'm one of the bravest girls alive I feel, I feel, I feel inside I feel that you have already died Stay away Stay away Stay away Stay Calculated My hate for you is a passion That will run for a million years My fury is a force that is equal to A billion of your tears It's calculated What I'll get back I'm taking everything I'll get it back Well I've got a knife that's sharpened Exactly for one white boy My target is your heart And the knife will go deep, the knife will go inside It's calculated What I'll get back I'm taking everything I'll get it back I'll get it back I'll get it back Waitress Hell Miss, I need another glass, this one is smudged And my lips are too precious for this We want the window table clear and set it for us It's not too busy for us Bring a million different things to my table on a silver platter You've got nothing better to do If you smile really big, kiss my whiney ass Maybe you'll get a dollar today You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell Yeah, I just do this job for a hobby So don't worry about a tip Five-twenty-five an hour suits me fine Yeah, I just love to serve Sure I'll take your plate, your glass, your bowl And then I'll wipe your chin And in the end I'm covered in your shit You look at me like I'm the dirty one You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell What you do comes back to you What you do comes back to What you do comes back to you What you do it comes back to You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell I'll see you burn I'll see you burn in my hell I'll see you burn I'll see you burn in my hell You're going to waitress hell You're gonna burn in my hell Intermission 247 Axeman Here we go axe men, here we go At the pep rally, I stole the show Wearing our purple and our whites Hey, look around there's so much white Do you wanna live this teenage dream? The punk white privileged scene Oh, quarterback, I'll steal your axe And I'll cut it out of here 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight And I'm going out there And I'm going fast And I'm going hard And I'm going crazy Do you wanna watch? Do you wanna come? 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight I said oh teacher, teacher can you tell me what to do? Or do you believe those white lies You are supposed to teach in school? She said don't believe everything you read that's written down She said don't believe and then I will burn the school down 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight And I'm going out there And I'm going fast And I'm going hard And I'm going crazy Do you wanna watch? Do you wanna come? 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight Cut off the part of me that's privileged Cut off the part of me that's privileged But that's too easy, this is work I've got to do High school, it's me in high school 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight And I'm going out there And I'm going fast And I'm going hard And I'm going crazy Do you wanna watch? Do you wanna come? 'Cause I'm out of my head I'm out of my mind I'm out of my life tonight Here we go axe men, here we go At the pep rally, I stole the show Wearing our purple and our whites Hey, look around there's so much white Do you wanna live this teenage dream? The punk white privileged scene? Oh, quarterback, I'll steal your axe And I'll cut it out of here Donating My Body To Science I know how you look at the world I know how you look at the world Everything can be explained by forms and charts and numbers Everything I feel is explained It's a chemical formula I hold these secrets inside of me It's a chemical formula I hold these secrets inside of me If you dissect it, you can control it If you can name it then you can own it I don't wanna play operation anymore I'm tired of ending up with my organs on your floor It's a chemical formula I hold these secrets inside of me It's a chemical formula I hold these secrets inside of me You want to diagram my heart Is it so that you will know how to take it apart? If you want to know how I feel You could never just ask me Terrorist You follow me on the fucking street You make me feel like a piece of meat You think I don't know what war means Now I'm the terrorist, see how it feels I'm gonna kill you I'll gut you and gouge out your eyes I'm gonna kill you I'm not your prey, I'll make you die I'm gonna knock you if I can Everything I say is wrong You laugh at me and knock me down Now your turn is coming 'round I'm gonna kill you Gut you and gouge out your eyes I'm gonna kill you I'm not your prey, I'll make you die I'm not kidding And I've had it just about to here And I'm not kidding I threaten everything you hold dear You follow me on the fucking street You make me feel like a piece of meat You think I don't know what war means Now I'm the terrorist, see how it feels I'm gonna kill you I'll gut you and gouge out your eyes I'm gonna kill you I'm not your prey, I'll make you die Complicated I don't know how to be good to you You're too close and you know it too Nobody has a good enough excuse I'm just fucked up and so are you I love you so much, you could hurt me So I do it first, so you won't see me Laugh it off and I don't feel it Hard as rocks and nails underneath Hardly anyone is sincere All I know is anger, that is real I barely know how true goodness feels I don't even know how to feel I know I built walls all around I'm begging you to knock them down But yours are just as big and mean as mine Tight defenses and we draw the line If you want to go, just go, just go, just go, just go And I'll watch you walk away If you want to go, just go, just go, just go, just go And I'll watch you walk away I'll die if you go, just go, just go, just go And I'll watch you walk away Oh, stop everything Oh, stop all of these fucked up games Oh, promise me we'll be good to each other Promise me, I need it signed, sealed and delivered Oh, stop everything Or my heart will break Oh, my pride isn't worth it Help me, this is hurting If you want to go, just go, just go, just go, just go And I'll watch you walk away I'll die if you go, just go, just go, just go And I'll watch you walk away Oh, Supergirl She isn't real I thought I could fly alone But I can't even get off the ground I don't know what else to say I don't want to push you away And I need your help today I can't get off the ground today White Girl We should have talked about this A long time ago But I didn't have to think about it That's what this song is about White girl I want to change the world But I won't change anything Unless I change my racist self It's a privilege, it's a background It's everything that I own It's thinking I'm the hero of this pretty white song It's thinking I'm the hero of this pretty white world White girl I want to change the world But I won't change anything Unless I change my racist self Paralyzed I've seen the way you looked at the sky You looked right up at it with unclouded eyes That ain't the way I see anything I don't know if I can stand another day of rain You left the nest so long ago You walked right out one day It was easy for you Ruffle your feathers Everything you have in my face Well, I had to leave my wings at home today Cause I've seen you in the sky How did you get so high? I don't know how to fly 'Cause you leave me paralyzed I wonder why Only some of us get to touch the sky You were born with blue, baby boy blue in your eyes You were born to touch the sky, the sky My sky, my sky 'Cause I've seen you in the sky How did you get so high? Cause I don't know how to fly And you leave me paralyzed I know why Only some of us get to touch the sky I know what privilege is I know what mine is, and why But if I could, I'd steal yours And I would fly so fucking high 'Cause I've seen you in the sky How did you get so high? 'Cause I don't know how to fly And you left me paralyzed I wonder why Only some of us get to touch the sky All that I can do is watch you fly All that I can do is watch you fly All that I can do is say goodbye