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× subject: * Bought an Xbox 360 for Saints Row 1 * × mood:  TIRED... But good. × music: Comforting Lie - No Doubt (listen) |
"Don't gasp at the predictableA comforting lie can't last Preordained checklist of this awkward love It's so sad Hold it, hold it all in Let it build up Build a bomb Blow it, blow it away Clear it all out Just end it." Hey! I hope ur well.  I'm doing okay! I just got off of work early. The Xbox 360 I bought off of eBay came in today, so i'm about to set it up and buy Saints Row 1. I've wanted to play a few 360 exclusives for years & the store goes offline next year so I decided why not now? Booting it up made me very nostalgic for the early 2010's. I used to love playing on the 360 w/ friends whenever I went to my moms house. I really want Fable 2. Also the CS xbox game... Anyways..... Should I be allowed to be upset when somebody takes my website code and uses it for their own site?  It has happened twice now (That I've noticed) and my instant reaction is anger but that makes me feel like a hypocrite because my index page is code that I took from an archive of my moms myspace page in like 2004 & changed to my liking. I guess nothing is original and I shouldn't be mad that people use it as a template for their own site.. I mean.. Most of the shit on my site (graphics and such) is ripped from old websites, so aren't I doing the same thing? Sorta? Why am I bothered? Idk. I should let it go. My site is nothing special girl...  Moooving on, I am going to go download some MP3's to make a custom playlist to put on my 360 for Saints Row.. I hope you have a good day, I'll see ya later!
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× subject: .: lost my DnD virginity :. × mood:  happy! × music: Sunday Morning - No Doubt (listen) |
"I know who I am, but who are you?You're not looking like you used to. You're on the other side of the mirror, So nothing's looking quite as clear. Thank you for turning on the lights. Thank you, now you're the parasite. I didn't think you had it in you. And now you're looking like I used to." hiiii again. I hope u had a good weekend! mine was good. Friday was a lot of fun! Jozelyn, Korrin, Jayce, & I went to emo night @ the secret group and had a really good time. Korrin went straight into the crowd as soon as we got in while the rest of us used the bathroom & got drinks. Afterwards we hung out upstairs and met a few cool ppl that were really sweet. These 2 girls asked me to take pics for them and I took like 200 on her phone lmfaoooo. I said "OKAY POSE ALRIGHT FLASH ON FLASH OFF WORK YOU LOOK GREAT". We left aroooound like 1? We got to Numbers shortly after & enjoyed the rest of our night there. We went to McDonalds after we left and ended up getting home around like 3. I went to bed and woke up for work around 7:30am.  I almost cried when I had to get out of bed lmfaooo.Work that day, yesterday, went by so fast cuz I was so tired. When I got home I immediately stripped 2 my undies and hopped into bed. I opened youtube & put on an old QVC broadcast from 2000 and passed the fuck OUT. I woke up a few hours later to my boyfriend making dinner. I ate and then went back to watching old QVC stuff until we went to bed. anyyyyyywayyyyyyys... that leads to today. Today was good, work was fine. Nothing crazy happened. After work I went over to my friend Brittany's apartment to play DnD w/ her bf & their friend John. I had so much fucking fun. I have never played before but I've always wanted to. I think i'm going to make a seperate post or maybe a page dedicated to it in the future. Whenever we flesh out our characters & the story a bit more. It's very chaotic so far, I love it. well.. I thought I wanted to write more but I just realized that I am fucking EXHAUSTED. I think.. it is time for me to lay down and fall asleep to QVC ... I hope ur well! I have the next 2 days off so I will prob b workin on my site.. see u l8R!
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× subject: livin' large! × mood:  excited × music: Sleep Is Impossible - Deluka (listen) |
"I want to get free, I want to break the spell.I'm sick of working out your logic and I hate when I'm so tired, sleep is impossible now. You're looking rested, there's nothing on your mind. How's your broken sleeping patterns now you've fucked up mine? I'm so tired, sleep is impossible now." Hiiiii. It's Friday! finally...I'm having a Sims 2 Nightlife moment toniiiiight. I'm going out with Jozelyn, Korrin, and Jayce. We're doing what we've been doing these past few weekends, going to an emo night and then going to Numbers. We are all hanging out rn, minus Korrin because she doesn't get off until 10. Plus Tay is here but I don't think she's coming with us tonight bc she wants to save shmoneyy. I cry. Work was pretty chill today. I just worked on schematics resets around the store. I got off at 6 & have been chillin w/ my galz. They are watching drag race rn. The new unedited version of season 15. We were all like ??huh?? when they shortened the episodes for the real gays of weho.... glad that's over with. Anywayz! I got 2 new Bratz dolls today. Jayce went to Walmart when I was at work and sent a pic of the ones they have rn and they had 2 dolls from series 3 that I didn't have! So I sent some $$$ and now I have all tha girlz. Here's a few dolls from my massive collection: (it's kind of a mess rn due to an incident with a lizard that ran into my apartment...)    omg okay so i stopped writing at like 8 so I could go to my job w/ joz so she could get sum lashes. It's 8:30 now & I gotta figure out what 2 wear.. also my manager said she would let korrin out earlier tonite! hell yes.I need to go get ready AHHHH.  I hope u have a good weekend. I will see u l8r ♥
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× subject: *o0o* howdy *o0o* × mood:  peaceful × music: Happy Now? - No Doubt (listen) |
"The uncertainty you had of meBrought clouded shady company The tenderness habitual A seldom-fading ritual You killed the pair Now only one is breathing There's no looking back This time I mean it" Hey! I hope you're having a good day.I've been great lately. Just hanging out with friends a lot, playing minecraft, watching "And Just Like That...", and buying Bratz stuff. Gwen Stefani & No Doubt have been playing on repeat lately.. I love them so much. Anywaysszzsszsz.. I just got off of work like an hour ago. It was a chill day. I worked from 9-3 and the highlight was when my manager and I split a $100 bill that a customer dropped like a week ago and never came back for. I decided to work up the courage to go to Walmart when I got off. I wanted to buy a headset with a mic for my PC so that I can talk to people FINALLY. I haven't had a headset since like... 2015? 2016? It was a nice Turtle Beach headset that I got from Radio Shack. I had to get multiple over the years from like 2014-16 because I kept stepping on the cord and breaking it... hopefully I won't repeat that... But yeah I got to Walmart and spent liiike 20-30 mins looking around the electronics section. I ended up buying a Turtle Beach headset again. I'm excited to try it out. I downloaded Dead By Daylight again recently and that's what made me want one. Plus now I won't have to use my phone to talk on Discord when I play Minecraft w/ my friends.  Speaking of Minecraft... that has been consuming me lately. I went out to eat with Kiersten, Korrin, & Jozelyn earlier in the week and we got onto the topic of playing and by the end of the night I had bought a realms server that we have been spending a lot of time in. It kept us up until around 1AM last night. It makes me feel so nostalgic! I miss the days when i'd visit my mom on weekends and play Minecraft on the Xbox 360 w/ friends. Good times.Well.. I just wanted to make a lil update here. Nothing 2 exciting. I think I'm going to go set up my headset and play dead by daylight. I hope u have a good day. I NEED TO SMOKE AHHHHH I got distracted bye luv u see ya l8r!!!!
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× subject: .*:. BusTin OuT ToNite .:*. × mood:  excited × music: Malarone - Linea Aspera (listen) |
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Hiiiiii.  I hope you're well. Today was my first day off in 9 days! I just woke up at like 7:30pm from my coma. I woke up to missed calls from korrin and my manager asking if I wanted overtime next week and I said mmmmmmm no.. no. no thank u. I don't exist. I'm going to an emo night tonight with Jozelyn and Korrin.  I'm waiting for Jayce to get off so we can convince him to go. I think he will now that i'm pretty sure we r gonna meet Tay and Sarah there.
It's at the same place we went last week, The Secret Group. I had soooo much fun that Friday. Maybe we'll go to Numbers again afterwards? Who knows.I'm still a lil groggy from my all day nap. I woke up with my bf around 7 to watch drag race before he went to work, even though I was half asleep for it .
Somehow my dumbass confused our plans and I thought we were taking his car to get fixed today but that's on monday. I was soo confused lmfaooo. He went to work around like... 9/10 something.
I bought the complete Lego Star Wars series on steam for like $5 and played for a bit. It's just as fun as I remember it being as a kid, even though I don't like Star Wars.I went to sleep again around noon or so. Now i'm sitting here, working on my site, and waiting for Joz to come over! I think she wants to pre-game and I still have some tequila left over from when we made margs that one day. Tonight is going to be so much fun! I can't wait for Korrin and Jayce to get offffff. aHHHH. Okay it's 8:44pm now and jozelyn and I have been hanging for a while. I'm gonna wrap this up here so I can have a drink and figure out what to wear! I hope u have a good weekend, see ya sooooon!
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× subject: ".*check out the vault*." × mood:  good × music: I See - Letters To Cleo (listen) |
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Hey!  Just making a quick update to say I put "The Vault" section of my website back up. It's a collection of archived websites that I like sorted by category. I created it when I was in high school but never updated it until now! It's a bit bare for now but I'm going to be working on it more over time. Check it out! 
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× subject: .:updatez:. × mood:  peaceful × music: Everything's Just Wonderful - Lily Allen (listen) |
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"Oh yes, I'm fine. Everything's just wonderful. I'm having the time of my life."  Hellooo.. I hope you're doing well! I've been doing gr8. Spending time with my bf & friends, working, and going out. I feel very nostalgic 2day.. I want to work on my site and play The Sims 2. Last week I went to 2 seperate emo nights with my friends. The first one was on Tuesday with Kiersten and Korrin at this place called Paradise Palace. It reminded me of a lot from The Sims Online. It was pretty spacious, with couches and neon lights everywhere. We danced and hung out, I also bought a vape from a vending machine just for the experience. The second emo night I went to was on Friday with Korrin, Jozelyn, Sarah, and Jayce. That night was a lot of fun. It was in a much smaller building that was connected to Paradise Palace. I'm pretty sure it was called the secret group. We got in, grabbed some drinks, and watched ppl go crazy on the dance floor. Korrin was in her element in the middle of the crowd while the rest of us hung out at the upstairs patio. We met this girl who called herself Coffee. She tried to tell us that was her real name until her friend started yelling "KAITLYN!!! KAITLYN!!!!" at her lmfao. We hung out with her until they started playing Panic! and we all ran downstairs. We took some cute pics in a photobooth and left around 1am. We ended up going to Numbers next where we danced for a while and hung out with the upstairs bartender. We left when the club closed around 2. After we left we went to bucees and got snacks. I got home around 3am and crashed and then got up for work at 9 lmfao.   I hope u have a good day! see ya l8r.
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× subject: Hangin' out × mood:  Stoned × music: No More Lies - Alice DJ (listen) |
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hellooo again. i'm back so soon. 
I'm just looking at my website, feelin nostalgic.I need to update so many pages, they've been the same since like 2019. I was looking at all the dumb little graphics that I made in photoshop and I want to make more! I also need to update the "cool shit" part of my page. It's been the same for years lmfaooo. I have so much stuff to upload. I am also thinking about bringing back "The Vault" page that I briefly had on here a few years ago. It is linked in the post at the bottom of this page. I have so many old websites bookmarked that I want to share! anyways, hiiiiiiiiiiii. I hope that you had a good day! I worked the night shift again today. It went well. We just put up our garden section and we have so many cute things there. I wish I had a garden. Right now I am having a few glasses of wine and listening to a CD that I burned a few years ago. I pulled out that box from last night again earlier and grabbed more CDs.. so here is the new list to add to my last post: GTA 3 CDs I burned myself - Lips 106, Rise FM, Game FM, Flashback FM, MSX FM, Head Radio The Cranberries - Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Can't We? Avril Lavigne - The Best Damn Thing No Doubt - Rock Steady Phoenix - Bankrupt! Vengaboys - The Party Album The Strokes - Is This It? Slyder - CD I burned w/ a mix of songs like Neo (The One), What Happens?, The Valley of Sound... The Postal Service - We Will Become Silhouettes EP Stars - Set Yourself on Fire Matt & Kim - Grand Alice DJ - Who Needs Guitars Anyway? (I burned it myself. Sadly I don't have the actual CD yet.) I love using CDs. I need to buy an external CD drive for my PC so that I can make custom ones again. (Using legally purchased music files of course. I would neeevveerrr download music for free. tee hee.) Well.. I guess that's all I have to ramble about for now. I'm going to play mirrors edge for a little bit and then go to bed. I hope you are doing well! See ya l8r.
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× subject: Still pretending it's 2002 × mood: Stoned × music: Walking Zero - Sneaker Pimps (listen) |
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hiiiii. ★ it's been a month since we last saw each other. that's a weird way to put it. idk. hello stranger. happy new year! I got out of work a few hours ago and have been cleaning my room, smokin, watching Daria, and listening to music on my new stereo that I bought at work today. Right now I'm listening to the Becoming X CD by Sneaker Pimps. It's almost over and i'm not sure what to listen to next. Here are some CDs I pulled out of a box in my closet to choose from for now: Aqua - Aquarium Avril Lavigne - Let Go garbage - Version 2.0 The Best of - The Cranberries OST - The Matrix Reloaded No Doubt - Tragic Kingdom Britney Spears - In The Zone I decided to go with The Cranberries. this was a good choice. I bought the Britney Spears CD at work today as well. I also bought a new discman. What year is it? Time is a concept. I need more CDs.. here's my CD wishlist: Snake River Conspiracy - Sonic Jihad Sneaker Pimps - Bloodsport Heavens To Betsy - Calculated Doris Days - Live in Poland Zero 7 - Simple Things Alice DJ - Who Needs Guitars Anyway? there are too many to list... those are what came to mind first. Anyways, I'm rambling, here are some other life updates: ★ I started working at Family Dollar. I actually enjoy going to work now because there isn't as much stress as there was at my last job. ★ I am moving out so so so soon. I can't wait. ★ I've been playing Hypnospace Outlaw and Mirrors Edge Catalyst a lot lately. I LOVE HYPNOSPACE!!!!!! IT IS THE BEST GAME EVER CREATED. ★ I've been browsing the Internet Archive and downloading a TON of pictures. I found a website from 2001 about a NYC party promoter named Glorya Hole / Glorya Wholesome and that led me to finding out about a club called Mother. I went down a rabbit hole and ended up finding a pic of THE ART SCHOOL GIRLS OF DOOM FROM LIQUID TELEVISION getting ready with other girls at a club in the early 90s. Here is the pic: (they are the 2 on the left)  SO COOL. I don't really have much else to say. I want to play Mirrors Edge. I NEED TO TAKE MORE RECENT PIX OF ME AND UPLOAD THEM SOON. AHHHHHH. I hope that you are doing well. See you next time! ♥
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× subject: Drunk thoughts × mood:  Wine drunk × music: Summer Sun - Koop (listen) |
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well hellooooooo. I hope you are doing well. ♥ I've been drinking wine and reading my old posts from 2018-2019 on here for the past hour or so, cringing and feeling nostalgic. It's crazy to me how fast time goes by! I miss the late 2010's, things were much less complicated. So much has changed since then! It's crazy what can happen in 4 years. Anyways, so much has been going on in my life lately! I guess i'll start with the big news: I FUCKING QUIT KFC. COLONEL SANDERS NO LONGER HAS MY SOUL IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. I feel free. Like a weight has been lifted off of me. The night (Sunday the 11th) I quit was really intense, I'll try to write it out as best as I can remember: The day before this all happened (December 10th), I worked the night shift (4pm - 10:30pm) and after I got off I went out to eat with my favorite coworkers Joel, Adriana, and her boyfriend Kurt. The next day Joel called in for the night shift because he wasn't feeling good and thought that he had gotten food poisoning the night before. I had to work that morning from 11am - 5pm. I remember when 4pm came around, the time I normally get off, I was annoyed because I wanted to go home. I was wanting to clock myself out because we were SO slow and I didn't want to be there until 5. Anyways, it was 4pm and the only people at KFC other than me was another manager and the morning drive-thru person who stayed at least 20-30 minutes past when she should have. I would've felt guilty for leaving them alone so I decided to wait until my 5pm replacement, T'antre, came in before I left, hoping he would come early. My manager, Brittany, ended up coming in before him. Meaning I had to wait until 5. She was pissed about having to come in, I think that was her off day. She had to come in because Joel called in. When she got there she came up to me and was like "Are you sick? you went out with everyone last night, right? Did the food make you sick?" I told her I felt fine and she just walked away fuming. Soon after that, Adriana got to KFC. Brittany did the same thing to her and Adriana also said no and explained to her that we all ate something different. That was all that happened during my shift, 5pm came and I left. A couple hours after I got off, I went out to eat with Kiersten and Korrin. When I was on my way home, Joel called me and said "Guess who just got fired?" (Note, Joel sometimes worked more than 90 hours a week. He could do EVERYTHING. He was the most hardworking manager and was up for the assistant GM position. Firing him was a stupid idea.) I was shocked. He told me Adriana texted him and said that Brittany was talking shit about him, so he pulled up to KFC and confronted her. I think that's when she fired him. After he left Adriana told Joel that Brittany was crying and he texted her and said "Keep crying" with a laughing emoji. I think that was sort of cruel but ... I did laugh a little. Eventually our coworker Alexis called Joel so he merged him into our call and told him the news. Later on my original manager at KFC, the one who hired me and is now a good friend of mine, joined the call. And then finally Adriana joined the call. We spent a while discussing the situation and I ended up going to KFC instead of home to meet Joel in the the parking lot of an HEB that is connected to the KFC LMFAO. (I was too nervous to pull into the KFC parking lot.) Me and Adriana decided that we were going to quit but she had to come out and help Joel pull me out of my car because I hate confrontation hahahahaha. Anyways, We go to the back door and our coworker T'antre was doing the dishes and we were like "Hey T.. We're quitting.. wanna join us?" And he was like helllll yeah fuck it. LMFAOOO. Adriana ended up going inside to get Brittany and she came out, LIVID, to confirm that the 3 of us were quitting and we all said yes. We celebrated in the HEB parking lot before we left. Joel gave Adriana and T'antre a ride home.  So yeah... That situation was crazy. I hope I explained it well enough. I am so glad to be free from KFC. FUCK that place. That took a while to write tee hee. What else has been going on... uhh.. ★ I just turned 22! My birthday was really good, I had a great night ♥ ★ I almost have the entire Bratz Girls Nite Out re-release collection. I just need Yasmin. Also allegedly there is going to be a Pretty N Punk re-release happening in March of 2023... I need it. ★ I am so balls deep into Dance Moms lore right now. Whenever I do anything I watch / listen to those 2 - 3 hour Dance Moms compilations on youtube in the background. I recently discovered the YT channel MackZBoss and I loooove her videos. She goes in depth into a lot of behind the scenes stuff that happened. I love the videos she does about the producer notes. So good. ★ I bought Tekken Tag Tournament 2 for my PS3, my life is now complete. I think that's all I have to ramble about right now. I'm exhausted. As Mary in Silent Hill 2 said: "Well, this letter has gone on too long, so I'll say goodbye." I never update my site so it had to be long.. tee hee. I am so tired, I must go to shleep. I hope u have a good day. see ya!
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× subject: I went to New York again × mood:  Great × music: Swollen - Bent (listen) |
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Hello! I am getting so bad at updating my website. Real life is dumb!! I'm always working.  Anyways, here's a little life update: ★ I went to New york again! I spent 5 days there with my friends Kat & Nico and it was amazing. I worked so many doubles for that trip. I spent at least $1200 LMFAO. Completely worth it + I am already desperate to go back sooooo hopefully we'll go back early next year. We made a pact with each other that we would visit NY together at least once a year and they're the kind of people that I think would commit to that so I hope we make it a thing! It was my first time being 21 in NY so I was drinkin wine the whole time. Not that it really mattered, I only got carded once at some shitty nightclub in Manhattan. LMFAO we spent $10 to walk into the club and see it packed wall to wall and we turned around and LEFT. Ended up spending $250 at Lilly's Craft & Kitchen which was MUCH more enjoyable. I got shitfaced that night and ended up stumbling around times square with Nico. God it was so much fun. I have so many stories from the trip but I'll probably make a seperate post for that because I am too lazy to type that all out and get the pics on here rn.. ★ I am planning on moving to New Mexico early next year so that I can be with my mom and my siblings. It's a long story but basically I've been taking care of my grandparents for like the past 5 years and I want to start my own life with family that I actually want to be around, and they actually want me there with them. With my grandparents having full hospice care now, I don't need to put my life on hold anymore. I am starting anew as a New Mexican farm boy LMFAOOO. My mom lives on a farm. Nothing CRAZY like hillbilly type shit or nothin, just some chickens and a barn and a garden lol. They grow weed, my stepdad works at a winery, and the landscape is beautiful. If you live there for a year you can go to college for free so I would also like to take advantage of that. It'll be nice to be able to relax and work on my life without the stressful shit I deal with here. I want to be there to see my siblings grow up! Ahhh. I can't wait. (update 2023: this ended up not happening... LMFAOOO.) Those are the only major / important / exciting things I feel like talking about right now. I want to play The Sims 3. I hope you're doing well.
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