my thoughts

× subject: bumpin that
× mood:

showered and fed
× music: Apple ★ Charli XCX (listen)

What's uuuppp

I just ate an off brand nacho lunchable (cuz it has the crunch bar), washed my balls, and smoked a bowl. I had to go to my job earlier since my coworker needed my keys to open tomorrow. I spent like $20 on conditioner, gel, and curl cream to try and help my frizzy ass waves. I'm letting my hair air dry so I will find out if what I used worked in like ... 3 or 4 hours.... I hate how long it takes for my hair to dry!

Besides that, I woke up at 6 something cuz everyone was being loud leaving for school. I laid in bed watching The Matrix Reloaded (my favorite one) while loving on Walter and Dolly a ton. Here's some pics:

They're so sweet. Walter also hung out with me for a while last night before I spent all night drinking wine and playing dress to impress with my baddies. Korrin, Kyle, Luci, and I stayed up pretty late playing Roblox. We spent most of it playing DTI and then ended the night with murder mystery 2. It was a lot of fun. Here are some pics of looks that we did:

(My dumbass took these w my phone cuz I didn't even THINK to screenshot them...) The theme for the first one was red, the second was flower something idk, and the third was boho. The third pic is when we all won together lmfaooo. Kyle and Korrin teamed for most of it. DTI is one of my favorite roblox games nowadays. I love the Charli XCX collab that they're doing right now. I kept annoying everyone last night by singing along to the songs tee hee.

Talking about it has made me want to play, so, I think I am going to smoke some more and then play roblox all day! I love having days off of work

I will see u later! I hope you are having a good week.

× subject: o_0
× mood:

tipsy
× music: Bluebeard ★ Cocteau Twins (listen)

Hiiii.

I hope you're having a good day. I'm doing pretty good right now. I'm just hanging out at my computer, listening to music and Aeon Flux playing in the background, and drinking a bottle of Barefoot moscato wine. I worked from 6am to 3pm today. I was by myself until 2 since my coworker didn't show up.

I'm glad to be off the next 2 days. Here's the song I'm listening to right now:

I have nothing else to say! Just popping in to say hello.

See ya later!

× subject: bitch I fell
× mood:

stoned
× music: Got No Reason To Forgive ★ Sol Y Santi (listen) (LISTEN TO THIS I LOVE IT)

holy shit so tonight I closed with Sam and overall my shift went pretty well. I locked the doors at 9:59pm and started doing the closing procedure. While I was in the office counting the deposit, I remembered that the safe was short $5. I left the office to grab the safe money to balance it out when I realized that I LEFT MY KEYS IN THE OFFICE. The door locks automatically and I just stood there staring at the door like :0

The wall has to be like 12ft tall. It looked so much shorter from the ground up.. anyways I pulled a stepstool up to the wall to try and grab the top of the wall. (there is no ceiling in this area, it's like... a little walled area in the store.. if that makes sense) I couldn't even reach the top so I was like FUCK. I can't do this! Sam came and showed me what to do, since she has seen a different key holder do this. Sam grabbed me a different stepstool, dragged it by the door that leads to the break room, I climbed on top of the door, then used my upper body strength to pull myself up on top of the wall.

I am terrified of heights so when I looked down at how far I was going to have to fall, I shit myself. I basically straddled the top of the wall and dragged myself to a spot where I wouldnt land on a chair. I held onto the edge of the wall and kind of slid down it as much as I could before letting go and I LANDED FLAWLESSLY. I mean, it wasn't graceful, but I am not in any pain! so that's good. I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF! Sam was laughing at me cuz when I was on the wall I was genuinely FREAKING out. It went from I CAN'T!!! to I DID IT!!!! so fast. The adrenaline rush was INTENSE.

here's a picture of the wall / doors that I climbed (i climbed up the open door on the right) and a picture of how high I can reach up the wall. (I am like .. 5'10" or something, for reference :D)

That was an interesting way to end my shift.... I am so glad that I didn't have to bother my manager... She has to be there at 6AM tomorrow. anyyyyywayyysss. I'm gonna smoke some more and then draw and watch dance moms! I hope you're doing well.

(Edit 8/18: I had a whole seperate post for the video but I decided to combine it with this post :D)

× subject: what's up
× mood:

relaxed
× music: The List ★ Metric (listen)

"Do lawyers have lawyers?
Do landlords have landlords?
We're wondering
One more cheap suit in the loop
More chlorine in the pool
The blonde doll smiling behind us
Says, "One day, you'll be just like us.""

Howdy feller. Hope yer doin' well. I'm having a pretty good day. Last night after work I went to Sams house to hang with her and our friend Alex. We shared a big buzz ball and painted all night while talking about random shit. I woke up around noon and went to Walmart with my mom. We ate Taco Bell and got home about an hour ago. I just got out of the shower so I am fresh n clean. I'm hungry... All I ate at Taco Bell was chips and cheese cuz I was feeling a little sick from last night. Well, anyways, I just wanted to make a short little post with some updates!

★ I am going to a concert in November! Sam, Alex (hopefully), and I are going together. I'm kind of dragging them along with me tee hee.. The artist is Slater (slater_vv on IG) but I only bought the tickets because FAERYBABYY IS TOURING WITH HIM AND IT IS NEAR ME!!!!! It's in Albuquerque. Some of her music videos are at the bottom of this page. I really like her music, I am so so so excited. I had never heard of Slater until this so I just started listening to some of his stuff to get an idea of what to expect. He's so HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm getting us a hotel room so we can spend the day wandering before going to the concert. eeeeeeee.

★ I am visiting Texas in February.. which is SO FUCKING FAR AWAY!!! 6 months!! I would like to visit sooner than that but I need money. I can't wait to see all of my friends and go to Numbers again. I miss Houston nightlife a lot!

I guess I don't have much else to say! I think I am going to smoke, find something to eat, and play some Postal 2. I will see you later.

× subject: ♥
× mood:

stoned again!
× music: chase the stars ★ Solene & minthaze (listen)

× subject: hangin out
× mood:

BAKED
× music: Mayday ★ Unkle (listen)

Hiiii. I just got up about 2 hours ago. I've been rolling around in my bed, smoking while watching Daria. I remembered that I haven't updated my site in over a week so here I am! Hello. I have my own space now! No more crashing on my moms couch.. I am back in my own bed. Here's a pic of my room:

I feel really comfortable in it. Whenever I am not at home, I am thinking about being in my bed. It smells like weed and febreze unstopables fresh spray. so nice. Anyywayss.. I am in the middle of my 5 days off of work. I go back the 28th, work 2 days, and then I am off for another 4 days. I was SHOCKED when I saw the schedule, I haven't had that much time off since I was unemployed. I've just been watching a bunch of DVDs, playing games (GTA:SA, DBD, and Garry's Mod), and .. idk.. hanging out.

I'm going to go upload some new pics and then see if I want to update somethin else around here.. Idk. I might crawl back into bed and watch more Daria. I hope you're doing well! I'll see you later.

× subject: <3
× mood:

stoned
× music: lucky star ★ faerybabyy (listen)

× subject: I want a lobotomy
× mood:

bleh
× music: lobotomy song ★ faerybabyy (listen)

I'm sad and I was going to write about it but didn't feel like oversharing so here's a song from my favorite artist right now:

I am okay, at least I will be! Things are pretty good overall right now, just stuck in my head. I have the next 2 days off soo maybe I will make some changes around here. I need to smoke! I will see you later.

× subject: went 2 a pride event
× mood:

DRUNK!!!!
× music: What Have I Done To Deserve This? ★ Pet Shop Boys (listen)

(EDIT 10/2024: I just realized I never gave an update on this. The back door wasn't shut properly and the wind blew it open, setting off the alarm. nothing juicy happened)

hiiiiiiiiii I am so drunk right now..... I had such a fucking good night tonight!! Sam invited me to go to this pride party thiing at this bar / restaraunt thingy thats like 20 mins from my house. It was me , sam, ty, and their friend Alex! Alex just dropped me off at ,my house and bitcH I am spinning!!!!!!!! I have to be at work tomorrow at 1:30 pm....... grrrrrrrrrrrrr... I wanna sleeeeeeep forever and ever and ever.

OH MYU GOD ALSO I WILL GET TO THIS IN A BIT BUT I HAD TO TALK TO DOLLAR GENERAL SECURITY AND 911 DISPATCH TONIGHT!!!! more on that soooooon. ANYWAYS. I was at work chillin w my coworker when Sam texted me and invited me to go out with them to the pride thing and I was like !!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't gone out in MONTHS!!!! I AM A CLUB BITCH!! I love that SHIT. I said yes so fast. i got off and went home and put on a cute little outfit.

sam n alex picked me up and we went to ty's house to pregame and I DID A FUCKING /..... BEER.. BONG? THING? what is it called??? The funnel and the tube??? Am i wrong? idk/. anyways. I wasn't the DD so I let looose. We went to the pride thing around midnight and got some drinks n laughed and had a good TIME BUT ANYWAYS BACK TO 911 AND DOLLAR GENERAL SECURITY!!!!!

We were at Ty's house when I got a call from a random 1800 number. When tht happens (I HATE talking to ppl on the phone) I always have the person with me answer the phone. So I let Ty andswer it. It was all fun and games untIL I HEARD "THIS IS SO AND SO WITH DOLLAR GENERAL SECURITY...." I yanked my phone out of Ty's hand SO FAST. The woman said that our alarm system was activated and THAT THE AUTHORTIES VISITED OUR STORE. I was shook. I instantly thought I did something wrong?????? but yeah anyways idk. I guess they have an employee roster and I was the only one who answered. I mean.. it was like midnight. anyways. I texted my manager and the asm and updated them and ig my manager went to the store??? while I was texting the ASM, I got a call from a 505 number, which is local here. anyways, I answered instantly and the woman identified herself as 911 dispatch and asked if I was responsible for the store. I was in the bar at this point so she had to hear the music BUMPING in the background/. ANYWAYS. I said no I am just a key holder! I told her that I told the manager and ASM and that the manager was on the way and the 911 lady was like do you have an ETA??? ANd I was like ????????????????????????? NO? So I just gave her my managers number.

I wonder what the fuck happened. I am gonna find out tomorrow! Anyways...... we were all shook about that for a minute but then we continued to enjoy the night. I had so much fun/.. It's fucking 3 in the morning now so I should probably take my clothes off and go to bedddddddddd I will see u again soooon when I am more sober not a drunk messsss. I love you I hope u are doing well mwah see u soon ♥

× subject: I love this song
× mood:

stoned
× music: What Have I Done To Deserve This? ★ Pet Shop Boys (listen)

× subject: yesterday was so much fun
× mood:

happy
× music: Vesuvius Theme ★ VtM Bloodlines OST (listen)

I think yesterday was the most fun I have had in months. Shortly after I posted yesterday, my new friend Sam came to my house to pick me up. We went to the store to buy some alcohol before we went back to her place. We hung out on her front porch, smoking a bowl while getting to know each other and sharing life experiences. She's also 23, which is awesome. I relate to her a lot, we're in similar phases in our lives. We hung out there for about an hour while waiting for her friend (well, my new friend!) Ty to pick us up. When Ty got there we loaded up her car and left. We stopped to get some more alcohol before making our way to Farmington lake.

We found a cute little secluded area and set up some chairs. There was a box that someone left behind that we used as a little table type of thing for our bags. We had a ton of snacks, alcohol, weed, and a gorgeous view. They are so fucking funny, I get along with them really well. We spent hours there just hanging out. When the sun started going down we decided to get in the water before it got too cold. We floated around for like an hour just drinking and laughing. When it got dark, we made our way back to our area and packed up before leaving. We stopped at Chick-Fil-A before going to Ty's house where we continued hanging out and drinking. At some point we decided to walk to the park so we did and just chilled on the playground. It was really late and we saw people walking so we all DIVED down the slide and started running away LMFAOOO. I fell up and down a grassy hill MULTIPLE times. It was fucking hilarious.

After that they dropped me off at home! It was so so so much fun. It's been forever since I have had fun like that. They seem like really good people. I can't wait for our next lake day. I think I ended up going to bed around 1am and woke up for work at 6am. I worked 7:45am to 1pm hungover as FUCK. I am exhausted. Here are some pics from yesterday:

Wellllll that's about all I feel like talking about for now. I've been balls deep in The Sims 2 lately so that's what I am going to spend the rest of my day doing! I will see you later, I hope you're doing well.

× subject: making friends
× mood:

excited
× music: Push It ★ Salt-N-Pepa (listen)

Making a quick post to say hi! Hello! AND that I was planning to play The Sims 2 all day until my coworker invited me to go to the lake with her and her friend. I am waiting for her to pick me up! I am so excited, and sort of nervous! She seems really cool and is very nice so I think today is going to go well. I'm making friends ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I will update you on how it goes later! I hope you're doing well. ♥

× subject: Download my Dollz collection!!
× mood:

creative
× music: I Wanna Be Down ★ Brandy (listen)

Okay so I made a post about this on my Neocities profile, but I wanted to make one here too! I added a link to download a RAR file of the collection of dollz images that I use when I make them. It's 26k+ files of dollz heads, clothes, bodies, accessories, decorations, icon makers, button makers, and so much more. I thought that someone would appreciate having access to SO MANY IMAGES. It's SO MUCH. I like to make dollz in photoshop because I can edit everything in detail. ALSO SO this is pretty much the same folder that is on my PC, the only difference is I removed the folders of images I took from live dollz sites here on Neocities! I wasn't sure if it would be right to share them?? I don't know?? Maybe I am being dumb?? Anyways. Yeah. It's still a lot of shit. I hope it makes someone happy!

Download it from this page, or, download the RAR file directly HERE. (30 MB)

That's all for now, I will see you later!

× subject: blah blah blah blah
× mood:

stoned
× music: Here's Where The Story Ends ★ The Sundays (listen)

"People I know, places I go,
make me feel tongue-tied
And I can see how,
people look down
They're on the inside"

Howdy! I hope you're having a good day! I just put on some press-on nails that I got today at work and I am struggling to type right now... I tried them out for the first time about a week ago, but lost them all after getting our cooler/freezer truck delivered at my job. Hopefully these will last longer than 2 days. I worked from 7:45am to 12:45pm today. Work went well, I just stocked and checked customers out. It's currently 4:27pm as I am writing this so I just spent the past 4 hours gussying my twink ass up. I showered, shaved (well.. trimmed. I'm growing out the facial hair again), washed and cut my hair a little bit, and did my nails. I feel good!

I'm going out to eat again tonight with the same group I went with last Friday. My family, their friends, and the people my age. Welcome to "WILL BRYCE DISTANCE HIMSELF FROM EVERYONE AGAIN TONIGHT?", the thrilling series. Probably. I don't know! I want to get closer to these people but I can't help but feel so uncomfortable around them! I don't know if they are people I would've hung out with if I was still living in Texas? But I think I only feel that way because I refuse to get to know them better! Is it nerves? Is it the feeling that I am "replacing" my friends back home? Is it a little bit of both? I could never replace my friends.

We're going to this place called Clancy's Pub in Farmington. It'll be my first time going. I tried to look up their website but it is down! Hello?? I was gonna link to it so you could check it out but. Well. Here's an archive of their website from 2003. Let's just pretend it's 2003!

omg my stepdad and I started talking about his job and he was explaining the wine making process to me and I just sat here like :O the whole time. It's crazy how much time and effort goes into it. Welllllll it is 5:06pm now... I gotta figure out what the hell I am gonna wear. Something cute.. I'm gonna end this here! I hope u have a good day and I will see you later.

× subject: stoned listening to heavenly
× mood:

relaxed
× music: P.U.N.K. Girl ★ Heavenly (listen)

"P is for the painful way she makes me feel some days
U is for utopia, the other times with her
N is for the new wave dreams she had back in her teens
K is for the kid in her, my P.U.N.K. girl"

Hi! Hey! HELLO!

I just got home from work. Everyone was awake when I got back this time! I hung out and talked with my mom for a little bit, it was nice. Oh my god, my sister and her friend just came creeping out of her room. They wanted to go outside to get ice cream from the freezer but didn't want to get caught?? I guess cause it's late and they didn't want to ask?? Lmfaooo I tried to help em be sneaky but I ended up just going out to get it for them. That was funny. They are in high school hahahahhaha.

Man.. I tried to open my Opera web browser yesterday but it refused for whatever reason. Could not fix it, even by reinstalling. I did NOT feel like figuring it out so I just redownloaded Opera GX. I used it when it first came out but it was too buggy. It is so much better now. There are "mods" for it and I downloaded a Portal and a Half-Life theme. There's also some chill ambient music playing in the background?? Usually stuff like that bothers me but it is kinda soothing. There's also a sound effect that plays as I type but it is really satisfying. I love this browser, thank you Opera for having a stroke and dying on me.

SO. An update on the drinking thing. I went 7 days without drinking just to see if I could, and it was easy as shit! Maybe I am not as dependent as I thought I was... Anyways. I decided to celebrate by drinking! LMFAO. I went out with my mom and her friends and the ppl that are my age. We went to a restaurant in an airport that had a live band playing, it was ... an experience. The food was horrible. The drinks were great. Our server seemed like she was struggling and my family and their friends were critiquing her in earshot! It had me embarassed! Working in food service can be so difficult and overwhelming, I have empathy for all who work in that industry due to my days at KFC...

Anyways, I had 2 long island iced teas and got pretty drunk. When the people that are my age got there, my mom was like "!! go sit with them!" And my drunk ass was like "okay!!! heeee heeeeeeeeee!!!! I'm social!!!" I sat down and we were all awkward. I got extremely uncomfortable and ended up excusing myself. As soon as I stepped outside and felt the air, I felt GREAT. I sat down on a bench and listened to Hole while taking in my surroundings. Eventually my mom texted me like "Come back!" And said everyone wanted me to come back. So I did. And it was just as awkward as before. I dipped again LMFAOOOOOO. THAT is going to keep me from making friends...

After we ate, we went to my moms friend's house. I drank some apple flavored brown liqour and then we took a ride in my moms friend's canyon car. I felt like Lara Croft in Tomb Raider. OR like I was in the car from Half-Life 2. It was pretty fucking cool. But yeah.. last night was fun. I think I am going to continue to not drink for a while, I haven't felt the need to! Not sure what is going on with that... I am not getting sober . Just cutting down! A LOT.

oh wow I have been babbling a lot of nonsense... I am stoned. First smoke of the day servin it up garys way. I'm gonna go smoke more and play Saints Row 2. I started a new game the other day and have been hooked on that. I will update again soooooooon maybe idk we will see. I hope that you have been doing well, I will see you laterrrr. byeeee.

× subject: recent purchases
× mood:

relaxed
× music: Turn It Up ★ Pinkpantheress (listen)

Some stuff I have bought lately...

Bonus picture of walter being cute:

× subject: I love No Doubt
× mood:

baked
× music: Magic's In The Makeup ★ No Doubt (listen)

"Can you tell I'm faking it?
But I want to be myself
A counterfeit disposition
Can't be good for my health
So many different faces
Depending on the different phases
My personality changes, I'm a chameleon.
There's more than one dimension
I can fool you and attract attention
Camouflage my nature, let me demonstrate."

What's up?

It's me again. I'm sitting here at my computer, smoking and listening to the Return Of Saturn album by No Doubt. I'm off tomorrow! I have been working my ass off lately, I can feel that shit in my legs. I like all of my coworkers, all of them are really nice. So are the customers! Why are people in New Mexico nicer than they were in Texas?

Anyways. A little storytime or somethin.. On Thursday, I stayed up until like 4AM, drinking and playing Roblox with Korrin. The next day, I was pretty hungover. I remember eating a microwavable pot roast that I used to get all the time from Family Dollar. Fast forward to that night, I was playing Roblox and my stomach was in so much pain. It got so bad that I decided to go to sleep, but when I woke up at 6AM, it got WORSE! I ended up rolling around in pain and then PUKED for HOURS. I remember when I was in the middle of it, I immediately linked it to alcohol and I told myself I AM NEVER DRINKING AGAIN!!!! I eventually deduced that I probably had food poisoning, because alcohol has never caused me that much pain before. But that feeling of not wanting to drink still lingered! I haven't had a drink since that night and have kinda thought about what if I just... kept not drinking?? I don't know if this is a permanent thing. I honestly don't remember the last time I went 3 days without a drink.. so yeah. Maybe let's see how long this lasts. I still have my weeeed. I think the environment I am in now is creating these thoughts and feelings.. idk what I am trying to say! Not saying anything just .. mentioning this? I'm trying something new.

Anywayzzz. Was that too much? Who knows. I was gonna play games with Korrin again tonight but she might've fallen asleep.

So I think I'm gonna listen to music and work on my website all night. I GET TO SLEEP IN TOMORROW. See you later!

× subject: Check out the iPod!
× mood:

baked
× music: Franklin ★ Paramore (listen)

"So, we stand here now and no one knows us at all.
I won't get used to this, I won't get used to being gone.
And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying.
And going back to get away after everything has changed."

Hi sexy

Just making a quick lil post-work update to mention I updated my index page! I added an iPod! My plan with it is to make playlists out of songs that I am listening to / define the current .. phase ? era ? week? idk. Just music to represent how I currently feel. If you care, listen to them! It's music that means a lot to me.

Work was good, I got a lot done. I made a mistake while closing, PANICKED, called the ASM and she was like "no biggie!". That makes me feel better, but there's still that underlying feeling of worry! I went to the bank to drop off the deposit for the first time today and it was an adventure. I was driving through a curvy road nestled in between lots of trees, with a cool view of the mountains to the left. New Mexico is so pretty, I really like it here. I got to the bank and could not figure out how to open the drop box.... I sat there for like 3 minutes TRYING before finally figuring it out. I think I will take a picture next time I go so that I can show you and maybe you'll understand the confusion.. Or maybe you won't, I'm not the smartest person.

Anyways! I'm about to play games, probably Roblox, with Korrin and her friend Luci (I don't think that's his real name...) So I am gonna wrap this up here! I hope you're well. I'll see you again soon!

(PS I archived some of my posts to make room for more on this page!)

× subject: Sold my left nut for Avril Lavigne
× mood:

hehehehehe
× music: He Wasn't ★ Avril Lavigne (listen)

× subject: after work rambles
× mood:

stoned
× music: Doll Parts ★ Hole (listen)

"I want to be the girl with the most cake.
He only loves those things because
he loves to see them break.
I fake it so real, I am beyond fake.
And someday you will ache like I ache.

Hey what's up?

I just got home from work and smoked a lil bit. There was a taco waiting for me in the microwave, I just INHALED that fucker. Work was good! To follow up on my last post, I didn't mess up! I've actually been adjusting really well. I was so nervous about getting used to working there, but it's been easier than I expected. Although work is good, I still can't shake the waves of depression that come and go.

They're slowly getting less intense, but they're still there. I'm glad that I open tomorrow. I think coming home after work to a quiet house is making me depressed. There's nobody to talk to right now...

grr..

But that's okay! I need to go to bed soon anyways. I have to be up at 6:45. Which is fine with me, now, since I've gotten used to waking up that early bc of my siblings going to school. Speaking of that, I think today was their last day. It's officially summer for them. I'm excited for all the fun shit we're gonna get up to this summer. More boat days!!

Welllll I didn't want to ramble on for too long. I'm still wearing my shoes and pants...... I'm gonna go fix that. I hope you have a good weekend, I will see you later!

× subject: howdy
× mood:

nervous!
× music: Atta Girl ★ Heavenly (listen)

Hiiii! I just got home from work a while ago, I closed without my manager there for the first time! ON MY SECOND DAY. I am feeling a lot better than I did last night, I was feeling so emotional. I stayed up until like 3AM and cried it out and thought about things so I feel a lot better. ANYWAYS, yeah, WORK. So, I am okay in the sense that I am not sad right now, BUT there is a FIST in my chest. I am SO ANXIOUS!!!!!!! I am so fucking nervous that I fucked something up while closing tonight. Even though I followed my notes exactly and called an assistant manager to help walk me through the last part. There's that little voice inside of my head that is screaming YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!!! I hate that! Having anxiety is such a pain in the ass.

I am so nervous that I am going to go in tomorrow and my manager is going to be upset with me. I mentioned this as I closed with my coworker, and she kept saying "It's our second day!". Which is true! I am really trying my best to make a good impression and do a good job. I want to succeed so badly. All I can do is hope I did everything correctly. I go in tomorrow at 12:45. Other than that, I mainly was just stocking and checking customers out. SHIT. I just remembered I bought cat litter and I fucking forgot it at work... story of my life.. so glad I kept my receipt so I can just grab it tomorrow. (oh, but of course I remembered to bring home the $10 roblox card I also bought.. priorities..) Anywayz the closing process at my new job has so many extra steps. At Family Dollar, it was so simple. They're really on top of their shit here. I guess that's a good thing, I just need to get adjusted to it.

I checked out a girl today who looked exactly like Kiersten. My heart dropped when I saw her and I WAS FIGHTING TEARS AS I CHECKED HER OUT LMFAOOOO! She had the same hairstyle, glasses, black top, a long skirt, FACE SHAPE!!!, and a tattoo on her arm. I miss Kiersten so much. Just typing this out is making me sad. I want to give her a big hug and then go get a long island iced tea for me and a beer for her and then dance all night under the disco ball. She means so much to me.

OKAY I AM GONNA CRY AGAIN. ANYWAYS.

I've been sitting here rambling for a while now. I think I am trying to distract myself from feeling nervous.. My heart is beating so loudly. Well. I am going to listen to music and focus on trying to relax before going to bed. I can't believe I have been so on top of updating my website lately! I hope that you are doing well, I will see u later.

× subject: started my new job today
× mood:

happy
× music: Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) ★ Lady Gaga (listen)

I just wanted to make a quick post to say I started my new job today! My manager is really nice, I think we're going to get along just fine. I'm excited to meet all of my coworkers! I've only met 2 so far and they seem cool! I think they're around my age. Ahhh. I've been so nervous, I'm glad I am finally employed again. I went in around 9am and stayed in the break room, training for most of my shift. I was there until 1pm. I'm going back in about 3ish hours to shadow my manager while she closes! I'll probably be there until 10. Until thennn uhhh. I don't know. I think i'm gonna play Corpse Party: Book of Shadows.. I'll see u later!

× subject: Take this quiz!
× mood:

relaxed
× music: Break It Off ★ PinkPantheress (listen)

Hiii! I stayed up until 3am working on my website last night. I've also been working on it all morning! Just little tweaks and new pages. I MADE THE INDEX PAGE LONGER! I love it!! I should've done that YEARS ago. The scrolling pics thing is cute. I'm gonna think of more stuff to add sooooon.

Anyways! I just spent the past hour doing this quiz I found online! Here's a little example:

1. Last beverage:
Cherry Pepsi.

2. Last phone call:
Facetime with my old manager and coworker.

3. Last song you listened to:
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne.

4. Last time you cried:
Maybeee when I moved out?

That's only 4 questions out of 167 total! Click HERE to view all of my answers AND to copy the questions for yourself to answer.
Well, I'm gonna get back to working on other parts of my site. See u later!

WARNING: MY OLD POSTS ARE EMBARRASSING. CRINGE-WORTHY.
I die inside when I read them. Why am I making them public again...

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