Sunday, January 22, 2023 - 9:54 PM
× subject: I see you
× mood: Stoned
× music: Vulcan - Snake River Conspiracy (listen)

hi stalker

Thursday, January 20, 2023 - 2:40 AM
× subject: Hangin' out
× mood: Stoned
× music: No More Lies - Alice DJ (listen)

"Why is it so hard to believe
that we're living in a world of dreams?
We don't deny what our love means now,
so I know, truth is just an illusion."

hellooo again. i'm back so soon.
I'm just looking at my website, feelin nostalgic.

I need to update so many pages, they've been the same since like 2019.
I was looking at all the dumb little graphics that I made in photoshop and I want to make more!
I also need to update the "cool shit" part of my page. It's been the same for years lmfaooo. I have so much stuff to upload.

I am also thinking about bringing back "The Vault" page that I briefly had on here a few years ago. It is linked in the post at the bottom of this page. I have so many old websites bookmarked that I want to share!

anyways, hiiiiiiiiiiii. I hope that you had a good day!
I worked the night shift again today. It went well. We just put up our garden section and we have so many cute things there. I wish I had a garden.
Right now I am having a few glasses of wine and listening to a CD that I burned a few years ago.
I pulled out that box from last night again earlier and grabbed more CDs.. so here is the new list to add to my last post:

GTA 3 CDs I burned myself - Lips 106, Rise FM, Game FM, Flashback FM, MSX FM, Head Radio
The Cranberries - Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Can't We?
Avril Lavigne - The Best Damn Thing
No Doubt - Rock Steady
Phoenix - Bankrupt!
Vengaboys - The Party Album
The Strokes - Is This It?
Slyder - CD I burned w/ a mix of songs like Neo (The One), What Happens?, The Valley of Sound...
The Postal Service - We Will Become Silhouettes EP
Stars - Set Yourself on Fire
Matt & Kim - Grand
Alice DJ - Who Needs Guitars Anyway? (I burned it myself. Sadly I don't have the actual CD yet.)

I love using CDs. I need to buy an external CD drive for my PC so that I can make custom ones again.
(Using legally purchased music files of course. I would neeevveerrr download music for free. tee hee.)

Well.. I guess that's all I have to ramble about for now.
I'm going to play mirrors edge for a little bit and then go to bed.
I hope you are doing well! See ya l8r.

Thursday, January 19, 2023 - 1:25 AM
× subject: Still pretending it's 2002
× mood: Stoned
× music: Walking Zero - Sneaker Pimps (listen)

hiiiii. ★ it's been a month since we last saw each other.
that's a weird way to put it. idk. hello stranger. happy new year!

I got out of work a few hours ago and have been cleaning my room, smokin, watching Daria, and listening to music on my new stereo that I bought at work today.
Right now I'm listening to the Becoming X CD by Sneaker Pimps. It's almost over and i'm not sure what to listen to next.
Here are some CDs I pulled out of a box in my closet to choose from for now:

Aqua - Aquarium
Avril Lavigne - Let Go
garbage - Version 2.0
The Best of - The Cranberries
OST - The Matrix Reloaded
No Doubt - Tragic Kingdom
Britney Spears - In The Zone

I decided to go with The Cranberries.
this was a good choice.

I bought the Britney Spears CD at work today as well. I also bought a new discman. What year is it?
Time is a concept. I need more CDs.. here's my CD wishlist:

Snake River Conspiracy - Sonic Jihad
Sneaker Pimps - Bloodsport
Heavens To Betsy - Calculated
Doris Days - Live in Poland
Zero 7 - Simple Things
Alice DJ - Who Needs Guitars Anyway?

there are too many to list... those are what came to mind first.

Anyways, I'm rambling, here are some other life updates:

★ I started working at Family Dollar. I actually enjoy going to work now because there isn't as much stress as there was at my last job.

★ I am moving out so so so soon. I can't wait.

★ I've been playing Hypnospace Outlaw and Mirrors Edge Catalyst a lot lately. I LOVE HYPNOSPACE!!!!!! IT IS THE BEST GAME EVER CREATED.

★ I've been browsing the Internet Archive and downloading a TON of pictures. I found a website from 2001 about a NYC party promoter named Glorya Hole / Glorya Wholesome and that led me to finding out about a club called Mother. I went down a rabbit hole and ended up finding a pic of THE ART SCHOOL GIRLS OF DOOM FROM LIQUID TELEVISION getting ready with other girls at a club in the early 90s. Here is the pic: (they are the 2 on the left)


I don't really have much else to say. I want to play Mirrors Edge.
I hope that you are doing well. See you next time! ♥

Monday, December 19, 2022 - 4:28 AM
× subject: Drunk thoughts
× mood: Wine drunk
× music: Summer Sun - Koop (listen)

well hellooooooo. I hope you are doing well. ♥

I've been drinking wine and reading my old posts from 2018-2019 on here for the past hour or so, cringing and feeling nostalgic.
It's crazy to me how fast time goes by! I miss the late 2010's, things were much less complicated.
So much has changed since then! It's crazy what can happen in 4 years.

Anyways, so much has been going on in my life lately! I guess i'll start with the big news:


I feel free. Like a weight has been lifted off of me.
The night (Sunday the 11th) I quit was really intense, I'll try to write it out as best as I can remember:

The day before this all happened (December 10th), I worked the night shift (4pm - 10:30pm) and after I got off I went out to eat with my favorite coworkers Joel, Adriana, and her boyfriend Kurt.

The next day Joel called in for the night shift because he wasn't feeling good and thought that he had gotten food poisoning the night before. I had to work that morning from 11am - 5pm.
I remember when 4pm came around, the time I normally get off, I was annoyed because I wanted to go home. I was wanting to clock myself out because we were SO slow and I didn't want to be there until 5.

Anyways, it was 4pm and the only people at KFC other than me was another manager and the morning drive-thru person who stayed at least 20-30 minutes past when she should have.
I would've felt guilty for leaving them alone so I decided to wait until my 5pm replacement, T'antre, came in before I left, hoping he would come early.
My manager, Brittany, ended up coming in before him. Meaning I had to wait until 5.
She was pissed about having to come in, I think that was her off day. She had to come in because Joel called in.
When she got there she came up to me and was like "Are you sick? you went out with everyone last night, right? Did the food make you sick?"
I told her I felt fine and she just walked away fuming. Soon after that, Adriana got to KFC.
Brittany did the same thing to her and Adriana also said no and explained to her that we all ate something different.
That was all that happened during my shift, 5pm came and I left.

A couple hours after I got off, I went out to eat with Kiersten and Korrin.
When I was on my way home, Joel called me and said "Guess who just got fired?"

(Note, Joel sometimes worked more than 90 hours a week. He could do EVERYTHING. He was the most hardworking manager and was up for the assistant GM position. Firing him was a stupid idea.)

I was shocked. He told me Adriana texted him and said that Brittany was talking shit about him, so he pulled up to KFC and confronted her. I think that's when she fired him. After he left Adriana told Joel that Brittany was crying and he texted her and said "Keep crying" with a laughing emoji. I think that was sort of cruel but ... I did laugh a little.
Eventually our coworker Alexis called Joel so he merged him into our call and told him the news. Later on my original manager at KFC, the one who hired me and is now a good friend of mine, joined the call. And then finally Adriana joined the call.
We spent a while discussing the situation and I ended up going to KFC instead of home to meet Joel in the the parking lot of an HEB that is connected to the KFC LMFAO. (I was too nervous to pull into the KFC parking lot.)
Me and Adriana decided that we were going to quit but she had to come out and help Joel pull me out of my car because I hate confrontation hahahahaha.

Anyways, We go to the back door and our coworker T'antre was doing the dishes and we were like "Hey T.. We're quitting.. wanna join us?" And he was like helllll yeah fuck it. LMFAOOO.
Adriana ended up going inside to get Brittany and she came out, LIVID, to confirm that the 3 of us were quitting and we all said yes.
We celebrated in the HEB parking lot before we left. Joel gave Adriana and T'antre a ride home.

Here's some low quality pix of us from that nite:

Part of the reason I decided to quit, other than the shitty pay and daily bullshit, was my old manager telling me that she would help me get hired at her job for a manager position that pays more than I made at KFC and I'm currently in the process of being hired there! woohoo.

So yeah... That situation was crazy. I hope I explained it well enough. I am so glad to be free from KFC. FUCK that place.

That took a while to write tee hee. What else has been going on... uhh..

★ I just turned 22! My birthday was really good, I had a great night ♥

★ I almost have the entire Bratz Girls Nite Out re-release collection. I just need Yasmin. Also allegedly there is going to be a Pretty N Punk re-release happening in March of 2023... I need it.

★ I am so balls deep into Dance Moms lore right now. Whenever I do anything I watch / listen to those 2 - 3 hour Dance Moms compilations on youtube in the background. I recently discovered the YT channel MackZBoss and I loooove her videos. She goes in depth into a lot of behind the scenes stuff that happened. I love the videos she does about the producer notes. So good.

★ I bought Tekken Tag Tournament 2 for my PS3, my life is now complete.

I think that's all I have to ramble about right now. I'm exhausted. As Mary in Silent Hill 2 said:

"Well, this letter has gone on
too long, so I'll say goodbye.

I never update my site so it had to be long.. tee hee.
I am so tired, I must go to shleep. I hope u have a good day.
see ya!

Monday, October 10, 2022 - 8:13 PM
× subject: I went to New York again
× mood: Great
× music: Swollen - Bent (listen)

I am getting so bad at updating my website.
Real life is dumb!! I'm always working.

Anyways, here's a little life update:

★ I went to New york again! I spent 5 days there with my friends Kat & Nico and it was amazing. I worked so many doubles for that trip. I spent at least $1200 LMFAO. Completely worth it + I am already desperate to go back sooooo hopefully we'll go back early next year. We made a pact with each other that we would visit NY together at least once a year and they're the kind of people that I think would commit to that so I hope we make it a thing! It was my first time being 21 in NY so I was drinkin wine the whole time. Not that it really mattered, I only got carded once at some shitty nightclub in Manhattan. LMFAO we spent $10 to walk into the club and see it packed wall to wall and we turned around and LEFT. Ended up spending $250 at Lilly's Craft & Kitchen which was MUCH more enjoyable. I got shitfaced that night and ended up stumbling around times square with Nico. God it was so much fun. I have so many stories from the trip but I'll probably make a seperate post for that because I am too lazy to type that all out and get the pics on here rn..

★ I am planning on moving to New Mexico early next year so that I can be with my mom and my siblings. It's a long story but basically I've been taking care of my grandparents for like the past 5 years and I want to start my own life with family that I actually want to be around, and they actually want me there with them. With my grandparents having full hospice care now, I don't need to put my life on hold anymore. I am starting anew as a New Mexican farm boy LMFAOOO. My mom lives on a farm. Nothing CRAZY like hillbilly type shit or nothin, just some chickens and a barn and a garden lol. They grow weed, my stepdad works at a winery, and the landscape is beautiful. If you live there for a year you can go to college for free so I would also like to take advantage of that. It'll be nice to be able to relax and work on my life without the stressful shit I deal with here. I want to be there to see my siblings grow up! Ahhh. I can't wait.

Those are the only major / important / exciting things I feel like talking about right now.
I want to play The Sims 3.
I hope you're doing well.

Tuesday, November 9, 2021 - 10:46 PM
× subject: mysterious linkz
× mood: bored
× music: Little White Lie - Living Days (listen)

I was going through all the pages I've created for this site since 2018 and there are a lot that are no longer linked anywhere. I'm bored so I decided to compile some of them here!

1. My Old Blingees: Here's a page with some Blingees I made a few years back. LINK

2. My Dollz: Here's some of my old Dollz! Maybe I should make a page with all that I've made... LINK

3. Matrix Code: A page with a Matrix code rain gif, that's all. LINK

4. Polaroid from 2018: A pic of me from 2018. I was a MESS. LINK

5. The Vault: I kinda wish I kept up with this. It's a collection of old Geocities pages I like. LINK

6. Sims 1 Bio: A bio page I made when I was 18 using The Sims 1 web tools. LINK

7. A Sims 1 Story: I made this a few years ago also using The Sims 1 web tools. I was stoned. Links don't work but you get the idea.LINK

8. My Sims 4 CC: Mediocre CC I made a few years back. I think the downloads still work but.. they aren't that cute.LINK


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* ~ to see my posts from november 2019 to August 2020, click here. ~ *

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