Howdy. Haven't given my site a good update in over a month. I feel like I say that every time I make a post here, smh. I just haven't had the motivation! I've been working, doing stuff irl, being depressed, or playing Fallout 2 and 4 every waking moment. But anyways. I'm not here to make an update.. Well.. sorta. Like I want the "Last updated 2 weeks ago" to go away but I don't have the time to do anything around here. Or maybe I do.. I DON'T!! I just don't want to pack for tomorrow aAAAhhH.

I am leaving for Texas in about 9 hours. I'll be there for almost 2 weeks, so my website won't see any updates during that time. But let's be real, would it have seen any if I wasn't going out of state? lmfao. I haven't done anything to prepare yet. I always put things off until the last minute. I NEED to go to bed, I am going OUT tomorrow, but I am too wound up to lay down.

I've been up since 4 something this morning. Each time I visit Texas, I can't sleep before I leave. It's a mixture of excitement and HOLY SHIT I HAVE TO GET ON A PLANE AND GO IN THE SKY. I have a water bottle full of wine prepared to chug before I go into the airport. But annyyywayyys. I got up really early this morning. I got stoned and watched Jawbreaker and played Fallout 4 for a little bit before I went back to bed. Got up and went to work and now I am here. Hello.

I need to pack. I NEED TO DO LAUNDRY. AHHHH. I don't think I'm going to sleep tonight.... Well... I think I am going to drink wine and play roblox instead of being productive. I'm going to play the underground war and word bomb on there.. yaaaay. Welllllllllllll. I'll be back in like 2 weeks. Then maybe I can make time to sit down and make changes around here. I'll see you later! I got FRIENDS TO SEE, CLUBS TO DANCE AT, AND BARS TO GET WASTED IN BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

p.s. I am so relieved that man is dead.

also ugh Bent is my favorite band I LOVE THEM SO MUUUUUUCH

" My heart for now is a private road.
No thoroughfare. No heavy load. No slow traffic.
No graphic details of colder collisions.
No more stories to make me ache.

I'll always love you, Venus. Still, you are mine.
Why'd you have to take so much time in calling me?
I just want it to be easy like Sunday morning.

Snow falls in silence and covers the green.
Still you can see where the birds have been.
Hungry, but alive and free. Waiting. "

I have had nooo motivation to work on my website lately. It's a combination of being busy and being lazy. I have been doing a lot lately. I went to California for a few days last month. It was chaotic, but a lot of fun overall. I got to explore Newport beach, go to Disneyland, hang out in a nice ass AirBNB, and meet family that I haven't met before.

I got home like August 2nd or something. I didn't get back to ABQ until around 2am and I had to drive 2.5 hours back to Farmington.. So I just called out of work the next day and got a hotel. I am so glad I did. There was a Denny's right next to it so I went and got a burger that I inhaled in bed while watching forensic files. I went home the next morning and PASSED OUT.

before I continue.. here's some pics I took in my room recently:






anyways.. I had 4 days off in a row this past weekend. That hasn't happened in forever. I went to the lake Friday morning with Sam. We stayed there until around 4 or 5pm and then I went home and slept until the next day. Saturday we went out to Durango.. It was SO MUCH FUN. I spent so much money.. smh. I need to be saving up for my TX trip next month.

We explored the city and walked trails and got really really drunk. We ate and drank at Applebees before getting a hotel. We ubered to where all the bars are and just explored. I think we went to 3 or 4 different bars? If I am remembering correctly, I had 2 beatbox's, a coronarita at applebees, 2 double vodka sprites and one single, a double cherry vodka sour, and 2 vegas bombs........ I don't know how I am alive.

While we were exploring, we found a sex shop where I spent way too much money on cute underwear and some pants.... I am so broke. Sam and I were very drunk at that point and saw a small red lips couch and had a photoshoot:



Most of the night is a blur.. We somehow ended up with a random blue patio chair in the backseat of my car that we took from the outside of some medical center across from our hotel. Idk wtf I am gonna do with that. I had so much fun, I can't wait to go out in Houston next month. I'll be there from September 12th until the 22nd.. If I recall correctly. I can't WAIT TO SEE MY FRIENDS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay.. that's enough rambling for me.. I need to go check on my siblings tee hee I am supposed to be watching them. I will see you later! I archived my old posts to free up space on here.. I will link to them at the bottom soooon. And change the theme of this page... I love the Matrix but this shit gives me a headache.