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× subject: I love you Metric
× mood:

stoned
× music: The List ★ Metric (listen)

All dressed down to catch a whiff of the buzz
Smells like the death of the last great cause
But you and I, we've been through that
That is not our fate
Give my face to the back of your head
Loyal in your shadow
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Broken accidental stars

Do lawyers have lawyers?
Do landlords have landlords?
We're wondering
One more cheap suit in the loop
More chlorine in the pool
The blonde doll smiling behind us
Says, "One day, you'll be just like us."

All dressed up to catch a glimpse of the list
We've seen some success, it looks like a camero
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Broken accidental stars

Do lawyers have lawyers?
Do landlords have landlords?
We're wondering
One more cheap suit in the loop
More chlorine in the pool
The blonde doll smiling behind us
Says, "One day, you'll be just like us."

Calling from the next hotel
"Can you put me on the list?"
Who we are now, we will always be
The best haircuts are taken

Calling from the next hotel
"Can you put me on the list?"
Who we are now, we will always be
The best haircuts are taken

Calling from the next hotel
"Can you put me on the list?"
Who we are now, we will always be
The best haircuts are taken

Calling from the next hotel
"Can you put me on the list?"
Who we are now, we will always be

× subject: I saw Faerybabyy live!
× mood:

stoned
× music: darlin' ★ Faerybabyy (listen)

Hiiiii. I got up around 8 and spent the past 4 hours rolling around in bed, mindlessly scrolling through IG reels. I started playing some Counter-Strike: Source but decided to put that off until I updated my site, so here I am. Hello.

I saw Faerybabyy live last week! The whole trip was so much fun. Sam and I left Bloomfield around noon and got to our hotel around 3:30. I put us in a Hampton Inn and it ended up being $135 for the night and the hotel was nice! Last time we went to a concert in ABQ, we stayed in a Motel 6 cuz we were broke little bitches. Anyways we got Wendy's after checking in and brought it back to the hotel to eat. After we ate we put some music on and started getting ready. While getting ready we each took 3 apple flavored shots and I was feelin good. I didn't want to drive so I ordered us a Lyft there and back. Both rides were like $10 it was great.

anyyyways there wasn't a shit load of people at the venue when we got there so we managed to get RIGHT up in front of the stage. We were there pretty early so we just hung out and talked while listening to the music they were playing. THEN FAERYBABYY STEPPED ON STAGE!

She played a ton of my favorite songs, and some that haven't been released yet. (which I loved, duh)

After she performed, she came off stage and was walking right past me and we made eye contact and I just blurted out "You did so fucking good!" And she was really sweet, she stopped to talk to me for a moment before excusing herself to put some things away upstairs and said she'd be at the merch table. Sam and I waited by the table and she came back and we talked for maybe 10 minutes. It was a really nice interaction. We talked about her music mostly. I told her that I cry to her music a lot lmfaooo. She gave me a hug, we took some pictures together, and then I bought her cassette tape! Which I will never unwrap, I will treasure it forever.

Here's a couple pics I took with her:

After that, Sam and I left to wander the city. We stopped and bought some alcohol and my memory gets foggy after that... I am surprised we didn't get trafficked. I had a lot of fun.

Okayyy I had smoked my first bowl of the day before rambling about all that soo I hope I made sense! I am going to enjoy the rest of my day off and play Counter-Strike: Source and pretend it's 2004 or something. I hope you're doing well.

× subject: Documentaries to watch
× mood:

stoned
× music: I Can Change ★ LCD Soundsystem (listen)

Hi! I've been making a few small edits around here tonight, and before I head off to go balls deep in Fallout 3, I wanted to share some of my favorite documentaries.

The first is "Enron: The Smartest Guys In the Room". It's a very interesting watch, and it got my attention because I am from south of Houston, Texas. Just rich assholes fucking people in the ass, check it out!

Click here to watch!

The second is Fahrenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore. I really, REALLY like this one. It ties in with the Enron one a bit. I love learning about September 11th. I've been to the memorial a couple of times so far. FUCK BUSH!

Click here to watch! (It's free cuz it was a livestream. Skip ahead for the full film.)

And the last one is The Woman Who Wasn't There. This one is SO GOOD! I also recommend reading the book. HOLY SHIT I LOVE THIS ONE. It's about a bitch lying about surviving the attacks on 9/11, IT IS INSANE.

Click here to watch!

I'll see you later ♥

× subject: I love this song part 2943854286
× mood:

stoned
× music: I Can Change ★ LCD Soundsystem (listen)

"Tell me a line, make it easy for me
Open your arms
Dance with me until I feel all right

It's good in the dark, good in the dark
But into the lover's light
Here comes another fight

So ring the alarm, ring the alarm
Bore me and hold me and cling to my arm
Here it comes, here it comes

And what you're asking me now, disastrous now
Hoping and hoping and hoping
The feeling goes away"

× subject: CHRISTMAS TIME BITCH
× mood:

stoned
× music: Lloyd, I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken ★ Camera Obscura (listen)

Hey what's up? I decorated my website for christmas last night! I changed the music that plays in the background to music from The Sims 1. Scroll to the very bottom of my home page to see the pianist, VERY hard at work. I spent a lot of time last night smoking and staring at my website. I fucking love christmas. The piano music goes along so nicely. Also, I don't give a shit that thanksgiving hasn't even happened yet. Turkey WHO? I wanna jingle Santa's hairy balls already.

Anyways, the Faerybabyy concert is in a couple of days! I booked our hotel room yesterday. I had enough to put us in a kind of nice hotel! THERE IS FREE BREAKFAST! Which, if we're going to get up to what we did last time in ABQ.... we're gonna need it. We're leaving early on Thursday to give us time to check in and get ready. I'll probably bring my video camera and record a video like I did for Greyday. Speaking of that, I took the greyday video down cuz I forgot to cut out some parts of my fangirling and.. it's embarassing. I'd rather it not be up anymore. I was DRUNK and EXCITED. I know damn well I'm going to be too busy crying and singing along to record shit, so we'll see about that!

Anyways, I think I'm going to take a shower annnnd.. I don't know. Entertain myself before going to work in a few hours. I hope that you're doing well, I will see you later.

× subject: updates
× mood:

stoned
× music: Neighborhood ★ The Sims 1 (listen)

Howdy. I am here to say that I finally changed my 'About Me' page. It's all text now, so it's a bit more simple than it was. I like it, for now! There's a little sidebar where you can jump to certain areas. Nothing crazy! Just something FRESH and NEW. My next objective is making the pics page look better. I think that page has been the same for at least 5 years now.... It loads sooo slow. I removed some images to help with that, but I need to do more. I was thinking about separating them into categories, kind of like how I have my 'Cool Shit' page. Speaking of which, I was planning on revamping that.. eventually.

I think I am done working on my site for rn, I want to play games. Before I go, I wanted to mention the day I had recently! On Friday I had a meeting at work in the morning, so I was awake at a decent time. A few hours after the meeting, I decided to take myself out. ALONE! I always rely on having somebody with me to go out and do shit. I decided to push through the anxiety and I went to this antique store that Kiersten and I went to when she was here, The Dusty Attic. I ended up buying Final Destination 2 on DVD, an old beanie baby, and a star shaped candle holder. I'll upload pics of them soon, I am too lazy right now!

Anyways, when I left I decided to get some food. I went to The Chile Pod and ate by myself! In my almost 24 years of living, I've never gone out to eat by myself. I got a grilled cheese BLT and had a couple vodka sprites. I have no idea what I was so nervous about all these years, I really enjoyed myself that day. I was on my own time, and didn't have to worry about keeping anyone but myself entertained. It was GREAT. I want to do things like that more often. I like hanging out with myself :D

Well, that's all I have to say for now. I think I'm going to play Fallout 3 for a bit. I'll see ya later.

× subject: New webcam page!
× mood:

tired...
× music: Commodore Rock ★ Ladytron (listen)

Hey! Just making a quick post to say I uploaded the webcam pages! Check em out here. It's nothing special, just some old pics. I want to make some other updates, but it is tooo early in the morning to stress myself out with my mid HTML skills.

I can't believe I spent 2 hours trying to troubleshoot what I thought was going to be a quick simple issue with my code. I was trying to make this page more.. creative.. I guess? I had the text in different places and had gifs everywhere. But the code I have on this page right now is not WORKING WITH ME! It's a heavily edited version of my moms Livejournal code from like ... 2003? 2004? And I have verrryyy limited basic knowledge of HTML. My whole website feels kind of ... jerry rigged.. y'know what I mean??

I don't know what I'm rambling about. I think i'm going to smoke, play The Matrix: Path of Neo for a bit, and then come back here when my mind is less foggy. It's not even 8AM! Why the hell am I awake...

× subject: I am STILL ALIVE
× mood:

Baked
× music: Paco! ★ Ladytron (listen)

"Ground floor, ladies' clothes, sportswear, stationery
First floor, kitchenware, furnishings, confectionery
Second floor, children's toys, back to school, mini-pool
Fourth floor, electronic, fake antiques, and lingerie

I saw your face on the black-and-white screen
I knew your name from the checkout machine
You don't have to spend, you just have to pretend"

Hiiii sexy bitch.

I hope you're doing well! It's been 5 fucking days since I have made an update here, that's the longest I've gone in a while. And that was just random maintenence, It's been longer since I've made an actual update, like adding a new page. I've been overwhelmed with work lately. I've been stressed, my mind has been in a haze for the past week or so. Although, the paychecks make up for it. I'm going to be able to get Sam and I a hotel room for a concert later this month in ABQ, I am looking forward to it more than words can express.

Blah, I am stoned. I had a completely different post typed out before replacing it with this. I was sober and very deep in thought about relationships past and present, platonic and romantic. I started word vomiting! Then I got stoned, reread it, and went oh no.. chopping block time. Some things should stay in my personal notes! Or just in my head...

But anyways, here I am!

After my last post, I decided to make a page for a collection of my old webcam pics from 2019 to I think 2021. I created a design for it but never uploaded it, so after I am done rambling I am going to finish it up and link it on my "cool shit" page. Speaking of that page, I think it's time for a revamp! I think it worked when I had less stuff linked there, but it's getting full. There are so many pages that I need to finish before doing that buuuutttt I am all over the place. Like when am I going to finish the recipes page.. or update my "about me" page?? OR FINISH THE SHRINES?? LMFAOOOO I think my issue is starting multiple tasks before finishing my initial one.

Well, I could waste time rambling, but I think I should get to making some updates around here before I hang out with Sam in a few hours. I have tomorrow off. I would say that I am going to spend it working on my website, but I am not going to lie LMFAO. We'll see how I feel when I wake up. Check out this song by Ladytron that I have had on repeat, and have a good day, BITCH!

EDIT: Well I spent 2 fucking hours trying to update the style of this page, but I could not for the life of me get it the way I wanted it. I give up! I'm annoyed. I need to create a completely new page with a new style. I'm coming back to this later. I'm gonna go hang out with Sam :D

Edit 2: I have some time before we hang... I'm gonna do somethin else around here before I leave...

× subject: .:'+"`* weBcaM piX *`"+':.
× mood:

Relaxed
× music: Rise FM ★ GTA III (listen)

Howdy. I just took some webcam pics and wanted to post them. Pretend they were taken in 2002. I don't know :D

I'm just hangin out and listening to music now. I think I might make those pics into a gif for my home page. I don't have much else to say, see ya later!

Also, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

× subject: I'm alive
× mood:

stoned
× music: Flicking Your Switch ★ Ladytron (listen)

"Stole your Visa card and took a trip downtown.
I don't really care that there's people around.

9-2-3, 8-1-6 is the sound of them flicking your switch.
8-1-5, 1-9-4, does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

Does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

I'm so happy that you're coming out to play.
Now I'm only one cocaine decision away.

3-6-9, 2-4-8 is the sound of them closing your gate.
8-1-5, 1-9-4, does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

Does this mean you don't trust me anymore?"

What's up.

I am finally back to make some changes around here after being kind of MIA for the past almost 2 weeks. I've been in a depressed state since Kiersten left but I had a pretty good day today. I will be detailing my moms wedding / Kiersten visiting in a seperate post, probably tomorrow since I have the day off. Plus I am too stoned right now to go into details about anything,

I just got home from work!

I switched back to my 1920x1080 monitor last night and it feels weird using it again. I feel so out of the loop with my website! I was looking around and some pages are starting to feel kind of stale. I feel like my about page is ugly and needs revamped! It needs... somethin.. My website is giving ... box .. it's giving < table > ... I want to experiment with some other styles...

What i'm doing right now:

★ Archiving the posts on this page because there are too many.
★ Updating the iPod ... maybe
★ Uploading a few new pics to my pics section
★ Updating my about me page? Maybe.

What I plan for tomorrow:

★ Upload pics / make a post about moms wedding and kiersten visiting
★ UPDATE THE VAULT. It's been almost a year, I SUCK. I have some links to share.
★ Renovate my about me page, if I don't tonight

I'll probably think of more to do while making updates tomorrow.

In my depressed state, I went to Entertainmart the day after Kiersten left and spent $41 on Xbox games. I'm broke. :D I got these:

THPS2x has had me in a trance the last few days, the Unreal game is alright, and Remember Me has me HOOKED. I went in completely blind. I'm on Episode 4, I think. I bought a lot more shit while Kiersten was here, I'll probably write about that tomorrow. Okay, that is enough rambling. I am making some edits around here and then dicking around on my Xbox for a bit before going to bed. I'll see ya tomorrow!

EDIT 10/24: I ended up playing The Sims 2 on my PS2 all day :D oops

× subject: Kiersten is leaving NM...
× mood:

sad
× music: Me And My Madness ★ Heavenly (listen)

Kiersten leaves today. I'm taking her to the airport in a little bit. I am so sad. I will be back to make updates around here soonish.

× subject: Kiersten is COMING TO NM!
× mood:

AHHHH
× music: Low Place Like Home ★ Sneaker Pimps (listen)

Hiiiii. I'm writing this using my 1997 Vivitron Gateway2000 computer monitor. I set it up the other day to play classic Tomb Raider games the way they're meant to be played.

Anyways, this is a short post to say I AM LEAVING TO GET KIERSTEN IN LIKE THE NEXT HOUR OR SO! She'll be with me until the 20th, so my website will see minor to no updates until then!

I love u I will see u in a week if I don't update sooner. I'M HANGING OUT WITH KIERSTEN!

× subject: TOMB RAIDER!!!!!!!
× mood:

fresh & clean
× music: darlin' ★ faerybabyy (listen)

I love Tomb Raider so much. I think I have inadvertently gotten myself obsessed with it again. My last phase was THIS SUMMER?? It's been a few months lmfaoooo usually it takes longer for old obsessions to cycle back. Anyways, I've been playing Angel of Darkness again lately. As well as reading up on the lore, which I recently discovered went a lot deeper than I had originally thought. If you are a Tomb Raider fan, especially the classic timeline, I suggest checking out this website.

It belongs to Murti Schofield, The writer for Angel Of Darkness. I spent hours diving into all of his ideas. I so badly wish AOD didn't flop, I would've loved to see his ideas come to fruition. Classic Lara was badass. That's not to say I don't enjoy modern Lara. I played TR2013 on my PS3 soon after it came out, and it is an AMAZING trilogy.

THE MOST IMPORTANT PART!! Tomb Raider 4-6 are being remastered! It was announced today. They'll be out next February. I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I played the remasters for 1-3, and they were awesome. I can't express how happy I was to see the announcement when I woke up. Shortly after that, I saw that there was a Netflix animated TR show that released yesterday! I watched the first episode and some of the second. It's pretty good so far, I can't really judge it yet.

Well, anyways, thats about all I have to say for now. KIERSTEN IS COMING TOMORROW!!!! AHHHH. Can today end already? I want to make some updates around here but there's noooo tiiiime right now. I'll be making minor updates over the next week, probably nothing crazy. I need to work on shrines!

I'm gonna head out, I gotta buy clothes for my moms wedding lmfao. I don't own nice clothes! I'm going to leave you with the trailer for the TR 4-6 remaster. I'll see ya later.

× subject: i love u neocities
× mood:

tipsy
× music: darlin' ★ faerybabyy (listen)

omg! They updated the Neocities editor again! The settings menu is sooo nice thank u sexy neocities developer people. I love u. I changed my html editor theme to Gruvbox cuz it's cute. The small font size is so much better. That's all I have to say :D love u neocities

p.s. ...... have I mentioned I love faerybabyy's music?? I bawl my eyes out to her songs a lot. I can't wait to do that in person next month when I see her live. This song hits me hard. ♥ LISTEN TO HER NOW!!!!!!

"You came through right on time
Now I've changed my mind
Oh you never even call me baby
But that's alright

Oh darlin', darlin'
Won't you hold my hand
I know it's been a long year but I think
We should still be friends

Oh darlin', darlin'
Won't you hold my hand
I know it's been a long year but I really think that
We should still be friends

Well I hope somethin' good is gonna happen to you
And I hope somethin' good is gonna happen to me too
Somethin' good is gonna happen to you
Well I wish you the best
Oh I wish you the best

Oh darlin', darlin'
Won't you hold my hand
I know it's been a long year but I think
We should still be friends

Oh darlin', darlin'
Won't you hold my hand
I know it's been a long year but I really think that
We should still be friends"

× subject: sneaker pimps is the shit
× mood:

stoned
× music: Walking Zero ★ Sneaker Pimps (listen)

"Sacrifice my vanity, kick off my heels.
A careless weight on your hatred.
Understand it's so simple, a simple please.
To keep the faithful on a wounded knee.

To the madness I do confess
I never see myself as blessed

Confused, unaddressed.

Like a savior I do caress,
The truth is boredom more or less

Unused, obsessed.

My time is only given up to you.
Too much to choose, it's not mine to contemplate
if I can lose, with this blood on my shoes.

Compromise in full extreme, cut off my heels.
Name a price on what's sacred.
Guaranteed I've got something, a royal disease,
take a flood to clean these streets

To the madness I do confess,
forever see myself as blessed.

Immune, obsessed.

Like a saviour I do caress
The truth is boredom, it's excess

Take more, give less.

My time is only given up to you.
Too much to choose, it's not mine to contemplate
if I can lose, with this blood on my shoes."

hangin out, drinking wine, burning CDs, and listening to sneaker pimps.
I'll make a post soon about the CDs I am burning.

× subject: details around my room
× mood:

happy
× music: Neuralyzer ★ Lure Division (listen)

(trauma dump redacted)

Sorry for the trauma dump babe!!! I can't be coy about that shit. Anyways, the reason I hopped on here was to show you some details around my bedroom, so, check check check it out:

I feel so cozy here. In my bedroom. And being with the side of my family I have desperately longed for my entire life. I feel content. I feel good about the person I have become, and for my future. I get to see Kiersten in 5 days! I am looking forward to it more than anything else at this moment. I hope that you are doing well. I'll see ya later sexy.

× subject: old webcam pix
× mood:

self-conscious
× music: Pop Princess ★ The Click Five (listen)

Hey! I was taking pictures on my webcam just a second ago and I ended up going through some of my old webcam pics from the last few years and SHIT.

These were taken 3 years ago. I used to be so handsome! I guess.. I still kind of am... but I think I should grow out my facial hair again. I was so cute with short hair!! I love my long hair so much but.. FUCK idk. I hated myself SO MUCH back then. I feel so stupid! LIKE ?????? SHIT. Maybe I'll cut my hair short again one day. Who knows! Anyways I'm going to contemplate where I went wrong, I hope you're doing well and I will see ya later!

(update 10 minutes later... I am seriously considering cutting my hair)

× subject: FAERYBABYY!!! AHHHH!!!!
× mood:

so happy
× music: one of the guys ★ Faerybabyy (listen)

OH MY GOD

48 DAYS UNTIL I SEE HER LIVE!!!

× subject: mmmm burger king
× mood:

bitch... drunk
× music: Fancy Coat ★ FAFF (listen)

Hi sexy bitch. Hope you're having a good day. I'm doing great. I just spent the past hour or so hanging out with my younger siblings, sharing stories and talking about random shit. My mom and stepdad just got back from what they were doing and they brought home some burger king. They got me 2 cheeseburgers like I can handle eating that much at once.... lmfaooo. I just threw back 2 apple flavored new amsterdam vodka shots.. THEYRE DISGUSTING. But I feel greeeaaatttt. I have to be at work tomorrow at 6am maybe I should kill myself. At least I'm not closing.. I'll have the rest of the day to rot. Actually I'll probably be playing Terraria which is what I have been doing all day today on my day off of work. 10 years ago I made a terraria world called "Home". a decade later, now, well..., in late september, I made a world called "Home, 10 years later". I never even beat the wall of flesh on my 2014 world, but I just beat it on my 2024 world. I'm coming after that moon lord bitch.

okay... that's enough drunk rambling. I'm going to eat my burger king and then play terraria until I go to bed. I love u I hope you are doing well I will see u later. ACTUALLY before I go, watch this CUNTY music video that was posted the other day and was randomly recommended to me right now?? I am obsessed.

I relate to this random quora answer I found so much. I hope this person is doing better since posting this.

"For me, drunk lessens the constant litany of self deprecating thought. It doesn't end it. But it at least slows it down. Lets me be for a time natural and not constantly questioning every action of the people around me, convinced that everyone hates me. Convinced that I must have "done something wrong".

I can feel the awkward come back as I sober up. And I'm not talking blind drunk. I'm talking what most people would describe as "tipsy" or "buzzed".

It's the closest thing to other people's definition of "normal" as I ever get. If I could live my whole life in that state, I would.

I don't. And when I'm sober, completely sober, I let the anxiety take over. I try so hard not to but it isn't a conscious choice.

Then, well then...I drive them away. Everyone. Friends, love interests, even strangers."

× subject: post-work rambling
× mood:

baked!
× music: No More Lies ★ Alice Deejay (listen)

"Why is it so hard to believe
That we're living in a world of dreams?
We don't deny what our love means now.
So I know, truth is just an illusion."

Hey what's up, I hope you had a good day. I woke up around 6 this morning because of my siblings getting ready for school. I laid in bed for a few hours before I got up, showered, and started making minor changes around my website. I was getting used to the updated HTML editor on here, but now it's been reverted to the way it was a few days ago. I deleted my last post where I was like "what the hell is going on" since, well, nothing's different now! Except the Theme... I don't know if I just forgot what the default one looked like or if it's gone but .. I'm using "Tomorrow Night 80s" for now.

I worked from 3pm to close. I got home a little while ago, smoked, and ate some pizza. Now I'm watching Alice Deejay music videos. My room smells really good, it's a combination of Febreze Rainforest and these cinnamon air freshener bags that I bought at work. I need to clean up a little bit and do some laundry soon. I gotta prepare for Kierstens arrival. I can't express how excited I am to see her. Not being able to see her these past 6 months, along with any of my friends back in Texas, has been unreal. It was a really difficult adjustment.

Although the move was really hard, meeting my friend Sam has made things much easier. I feel so lucky to have met a real ass bitch like her. She puts up with my annoying ass and I am very thankful for that. Friends are so important. I love all of my friends so much. I can't wait to visit Texas.

Okay.. well, I think I have rambled enough. I'm going to make a few changes around here before, uh, doing something idk. I need to update my links page! Anyways that's all for now. I hope that you're doing well and I will see ya next time. (before I go, I'm going to leave you with an Alice Deejay music video because I love her)

× subject: ★
× mood:

great
× music: Seventeen ★ Ladytron (listen)

× subject: yay site updates
× mood:

tipsy
× music: I Could Never Stay Mad At You ★ Faerybabyy (listen)

"I'll wrap my arms around you tight
Just for the night and maybe we could get it right sometime
Can we get it right this time? Can we get it right?
Baby, just for the night, oh baby, just for one night

I know you're so damn miserable, you say, "I'm sad"
He says you're too unpredictable, but I can't stay mad
Walkin' through all the situational things that he said
But I can't help myself, you're not there
I can't get myself to care."

55 DAYS UNTIL I SEE FAERYBABYY LIVE!!!!

Howdy

I've been working on my website pretty much all day. I finally created a shrines page! It's linked on my home page. I've been wanting to make one since I made this website. Anyways I was kind of all over the place while making changes around here. I started with the shrines, got distracted reading my old posts from before covid, started updating the iPod and then stopped, and I added a couple links to my links page. I think I'm going to take the link off of my main page and keep it just on my cool shit page...

Anyways, I just wanted to make a short little post mentioning the new shrines page and to show you a video I just found that was posted a few weeks ago:

It's sick! My website and some other cool sites on Neocities are in it.

I kind of want to finish updating the iPod but I might put that off to drink some wine and play Deus Ex Invisible War. I think I am going with the second option. I hope you're doing well, I'll see ya later.

× subject: I love this song
× mood:

emotional
× music: Friends ★ Bent (listen)

"Just friends. We're lovers no more, just friends. But not like before.
To think of all that's been, and not to love again.
It's like pretending this is not the ending.

That we're two friends, drifting so far apart. Just friends.
We loved, we laughed, we cried. Then suddenly our love died.
And the story ends, and we remain."

× subject: !! NEW !! LINKS PAGE !!
× mood:

stoned
× music: can't help myself ★ Faerybabyy (listen)

Hey! Just making a quick post to say I created a links page! It has different buttons of mine so you can link to my site along with other neocities sites that I like! Plus some random websites from around the web. I'll be updating it over time, it's a little bare for now.. Anyways, here's a lil peak of the page:

Click HERE to check it out! It's also linked on my home page and on the "cool shit" page. I plan on making a seperate page for the Grey Day video, since it's eventually going to be buried on this page. I also want to make a page with some of my old Roblox messages from the late 00's / early 10's because they're really funny. I also need to update and finish some other pages around here! I got a lot to do.

Before I go, here's a few of my new website buttons that i've made so far:

I hope you're doing well! I think I'm gonna work on my site a little bit more before playing some games or somethin.. see ya later!

× subject: Grey Day was awesome
× mood:

living large
× music: I NO LONGER FEAR THE RAZOR GUARDING MY HEEL (III) ★ $UICIDEBOY$ (listen)

HEY. I had so much fucking fun yesterday. I have tons of videos that I plan on editing together (maybe in windows movie maker) before uploading them onto here either tomorrow or the next day since I'm off of work. I haven't had this much fun in so long.

I woke up around 6:30am and worked from 8-12. When I got off I picked up Sam before we went to speedway (I think that's where we went..) to fill up my car and buy these AMAZING PORK BURRITOS. Holy shit I would murder one of those right now. The drive to Albuquerque was surprisingly simple. I drove straight for like 150 miles before dealing with the freeway and traffic and shit. I drove in Houston for years so Albuquerque was EASY. Anyone from Houston knows DRIVING THERE IS HELL. Anyways we ended up getting to our motel around 4 something. We got ready and pregamed a little bit before we left. Here's a picture of Sam n I before we left:

We parked at the venue shortly after 5pm. We had like 8 apple flavored vodka shooters, a pink lemonade beat box, I think 6 pre-rolled joints, and my personal weed stash. Here's a pic:

We got toasty in the parking lot before heading into the venue. Sam hid 4 of the vodka shooters and all of the joints in her bra. We got to security and the woman noticed Sam's pen in her bag and told us to take it back to the car, so we walked out of her eyesight and Sam slipped it into her bra lmfao. We went to a different security person and got in no problem. We found ourselves a nice little area on the lawn and relaxed while listening to the openers. It's crazy that I got to look at Pouya in person with my EYEBALLS!! He was so tiny on stage from where I was sitting. I was obsessed with him in high school. Here's a picture I took when we sat down:

And then here are some other pics from before the show:

The show was fucking amazing. We were smokin joints and vibin to the music. I kept having flashbacks to 2017 because that's when I listened to suicideboys. Sam is getting me back into them. I NO LONGER FEAR THE RAZOR GUARDING MY HEEL (III) remains my favorite. Thorns is also a really good songANYWAYS. Shit was FUCKING AWESOME. Okay here are some pics from during the show:

The show ended around 11 or midnight, I can't remember exactly when it was. We made our way back to my car and then SAT THERE FOR AN HOUR because traffic was STILL in the parking lot. It was INSANE, I was so irritated. We made plans to go to Denny's afterwards so all I had on my mind was hashbrowns and orange juice and pancakes and shit. When we finally made it out of the parking lot, we made our way to Dennys. The wait was like 30 minutes so we were like uhhhhhhhhhhh maybe not... We went to waffle house which was equally busy. We ended up deciding to go to a 24 hour Subway which was fucking DELICIOUS. We went back to our motel around I think 2am and I sat in bed fucking my face with my sandwich. I didn't end up in bed until 6 something in the morning because I met somebody and invited him back to our motel..... Here's a pic of me before I got into bed:

I was up for 24 hours.. I slept until around 11am. We were slowly getting up when the motel staff was knocking on our door like bitch are you checking out?? We turned in our keys and left around noon. We stopped at mcdonalds at some point and we both got a cheeseburger and shared large fries. I think I ended up getting home around 3pm. I had enough time to take a quick shower before work.

I worked from 4pm to 10:30pm. Work was chill. I met my new coworker, Stephanie. I think we clicked?? I hope so. I just worked on getting out overstock cooler / freezer shit while watching Orange Is The New Black. I'm on season 6! I didn't make it this far when it was still being made. I watched each season as they came out up until I think season 4 or 5? When the riot starts. It is such a good show, I love having Netflix again :D

Anyways, after work I gave my coworker, Gio, a ride home. We went to circle k before and he bought me 2 peach flavored vodka shooters which I have mixed with mello yello?? for whatever reason?? It is fucking disgusting. I'm still sippin on it though... OKAY I think I have rambled enough.. I'm going to start working on transferring the videos of last night from my video camera to my pc! I will see you uh probably tomorrow when I update my site again. I hope you're doing well.

× subject: hung out with sam
× mood:

excited
× music: Leave The Ho ★ Aisha (listen)

So after my last post I ended up making plans to hang with Sam. I took a shower before picking her up and we drove around buying snacks, alcohol, and makeup / nail stuff for tomorrow. I got this white concealer that I have been wanting since last year! We were going to sell it at Family Dollar, but I moved before we got any in. I wanted it for goth looks for when I went to Numbers, which I can't do now... sad. I'm saving it for February.. maybe.. idk what im gonna wear to the club. That's so far away ANYWAYS! anywaysyanyways..

I got some fake nails that I think I am going to wear tomorrow night. I also got an eyeliner with a star stamp on it! SO CUTE. I'm thinking about putting the nails on now but idk... I might wait until tomorrow. We're leaving as soon as I get off at 12. We're gonna fill up my car, get lunch, then drive 2 and a half hours to Albuquerque. We're gonna get ready, get drunk, and then head to the venue early to find a good spot. We're sneaking in apple flavored vodka shooters.. tee hee. I'm gonna hide one in my buttcheeks.

I can't wait. I need to go to bed cuz I got A LOT goin on tomorrow!! But I'm not because I want to play Saints Row 2 since I didn't earlier.. I might drink some of the beat box I got for tomorrow.. teehee I haven't drank in a WHILE. Okay I go smokey and drinky and saints rowy I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL. And that you have a good week. I will see you wednesday night since I won't be home to update my site until then!

OKAY GOODBYE NOW SEE YOU LATER ♥

× subject: Concert in ABQ tommorrow!!
× mood:

excited
× music: Don't Fuck Me Like I'm Your Wife ★ Aisha (listen)

I just made last minute plans to go to Albuquerque with Sam for Grey Day tomorrow! She was supposed to go with another one of her friends who kinda fucked her over, so I am taking her place and we're going to have a great time. I don't really listen to suicideboys that much. I listened to some of their stuff when I would hang out with my old friend Taylor in high school, but I wouldn't call myself a fan. Sam really loves them so now I listen to them when I am with her. Their music is good, just not what I am normally in the mood to listen to. I'm excited, I know we're going to have a great time. I'll upload some pics in the next few days!

That's about all for now. I'm SO glad that bug or whatever is gone from the other day.. I kept updating my site, but NO CHANGES WERE HAPPENING. It was so irritating. I was trying to upload new graphics that I made onto the "my graphics" page. I've added a lot since then so go check it out! I think i'm going to play Saints Row 2 for a bit before figuring out wtf I am going to wear tomorrow! I am so excited! I'll see you later ♥

× subject: NEW WEBSITE BUTTON!
× mood:

stoned
× music: Paper Bag ★ Fiona Apple (listen)

"Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works
When it costs too much to love"

Hey

I've been working on things around my site tonight and I wanted to make a short post to say I updated my website button! I made the one I was using when I was like 17 and it looks like shit.. I also uploaded a lot of new images to the "my graphics" page! Anyways, here's the transformation:

FROM

If you link to my site, I don't care which button you use! I'm thinking about making more variations in the future. I think that's all for now! I hope you're doing well. I will see u around!

× subject: silent hill wiki story
× mood:

tipsy
× music: Apple ★ Charli XCX (listen) (yes, again, and what?)

Hi!! I just ate a plate of spaghetti and smoked a bowl, I am in a really good mood! SO. I made this post a few days ago, but for whatever reason, I deleted it. I think I got nervous that I was oversharing?? But it's my past self so who cares!! It's not me anymore. Anyways, STORY TIME!!!

So I got into Silent Hill back in around 2010 / 2011, when I watched the first movie with my mom. Sometime in early 2012, when I had my PS3, I bought and played Silent Hill 1 for the first time. I remember finding it WAY too difficult for my 11 year old self and gave up quickly. Despite being too stupid to complete the game, I fell in love with the series! I spent a lot of time researching the lore and watching videos about the games on Youtube. This leads us to when I discovered Silenthill.wikia.com also in early 2012. I think nowadays it's called Fandom or whatever. I feel old!!

I made an account using a picture I had found on google. I think I just searched "scene girl" and scrolled until I stumbled across some random girls blog. I stole her pics and used them for myself! I said that my name was Laurie because I was OBSESSED with Rob Zombie's Halloween movies at the time. Anyways, Fandom / Wikia websites used to have chatrooms back in the day. I spent a lot of time over the span of a few months in the silent hill wiki chatroom, talking to grown adults and starting drama. I was 11!! There was one good thing that came out of it, I remember one member who was regularly in the chatroom walked me through Silent Hill 1 COMPLETELY THROUGH A CHATROOM and helped me complete it. I will never forget that!

Anyways, I am rambling a lot, why don't I get to the PICTURES. These screenshots are from 2019 when I last reminisced over this story: (The she they are referring to, is me! tee hee. I'm LisaGarlandNurse.)

I wish I had the transcripts of the chatroom convos I had! I wonder what kind of shit I was stirring up... The audicity I had at 11 to claim to be a 19 year old girl LMFAOOO. Also I forgot to mention, I had made a seperate account as myself claiming to be the little brother of my fake account. I remember when I got caught, I made ANOTHER fake account with ANOTHER pic of a random scene girl. I joined the chat as her, claiming to be the first fake accounts SISTER. These people were in their teens / 20's, they saw through my bs instantly. I had quite an imagination.

I wonder where all of these people are now! When I initially made this post a few days ago, I spent a few hours afterwards going through their profiles and there was a lot of drama in the years after I got busted and booted out. It was a really interesting read. All these people seem to be inactive now, I wonder what they are up to... I hope that they are doing well and still love Silent Hill. I'd love to talk to them again, I wonder if they even remember me!

Well, I just wanted to share this again! I think it's a funny story. I was a little liar as a child. I think I am going to make a page with my old Roblox messages from 2009 to 2012, so you can get an idea of what a character I was as a kid... Well, I think I am going to work on my website a bit more and then.. I don't know. Play Roblox? Saints Row? I'll figure that out later... I updated my about me page and I added a page for looks from DTI on Roblox in my cool shit section! Check em out!

Okay, I am going now, I will see you later!! I hope you have a good day! or night! I don't fucking know! Bye :D

WARNING: MY OLD POSTS ARE EMBARRASSING. CRINGE-WORTHY.
I die inside when I read them. Why am I making them public again...

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