Tuesday, November 9, 2021 - 10:46 PM
× subject: mysterious linkz
× mood: bored
× music: Little White Lie - Living Days (listen)

I was going through all the pages I've created for this site since 2018 and there are a lot that are no longer linked anywhere. I'm bored so I decided to compile some of them here!

1. My Old Blingees: Here's a page with some Blingees I made a few years back. LINK

2. My Dollz: Here's some of my old Dollz! Maybe I should make a page with all that I've made... LINK

3. Matrix Code: A page with a Matrix code rain gif, that's all. LINK

4. Polaroid from 2018: A pic of me from 2018. I was a MESS. LINK

5. The Vault: I kinda wish I kept up with this. It's a collection of old Geocities pages I like. LINK

6. Sims 1 Bio: A bio page I made when I was 18 using The Sims 1 web tools. LINK

7. A Sims 1 Story: I made this a few years ago also using The Sims 1 web tools. I was stoned. Links don't work but you get the idea.LINK

8. My Sims 4 CC: Mediocre CC I made a few years back. I think the downloads still work but.. they aren't that cute.LINK

Saturday, November 6, 2021 - 11:12 PM
× subject: i went 2 new york
× mood: drunk & nostalgic
× music: Losing Grip - Avril Lavigne (listen)

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★ HOLY shiT I have not updated my site in a while SO much has been goin on in my life L8ly. I guess I should start w/ talking bout my new york trip! I left on September 26th & came home on October 1st. It was crazy. I stayed in tribeca in Manhattan by canal st. I met the person I stayed w/ on instagram and after 1 to 2 weeks of talking I was on my way to NY. He changed my life. I experienced things I never imagined I would experience. One of my favorite parts of the trip was when I got to walk around manhattan by myself for a few hours & saw the 9/11 memorial. FucK, talking about it makes me sad I wish I could go back to the moment I was walking down the stairs of the building I was staying in, trying to detangle my headphones before listening to music from GTA IV. It was a whole ass moment for me. I walked about a 20 to 30 minute walk to the WTC and sat by the fountains for a good 45 mins before going back. I just sat back, relaxed, listened to music, & enjoyed myself. Here's some pix from that moment:

I miss NY so much. I got to get drunk with the person I was staying with and his friends on top of their building in manhattan right next to the empire state building. It was surreal. Here's some picz of my drunk ass freakin out on this mf skyscraper & pics I took while drunk in times square (my hair WAS A MESS I was in desperate need of a haircut.. ignore that..):

On one of the last days I was there I got to hang out with my friend Josie and it was so much fucking fun. I met Josie forever ago at Numbers in Houston and we became good friends. He recently moved to Brooklyn, NY so when he saw I was there he was like !! bitch hello!! We met up around noon at a bagel shop and had the nicest reunion! We went in and I got a sesame bagel w/ cream cheese and a coffee. We walked to a nearby park and sat, enjoyed the weather, ate our bagels, caught up, & talked about life and the future. While we were hanging there, a group of teens came to the park and start rolling up a mf blunt and started smoking i was like :O. bitch i'm from texas I'm not used 2 smokin in public. People in NY really dont give a shit though, after Josie saw them smoking he was like fuck it girl lets smoke a bowl and I got high as shit next to this fuckin playground where a toddler was playing. nobody cared though!! not even a glance. I fucking love new york. After we smoked and finished eating we started exploring manhattan for a while before heading to central park. We shared his airpods and listened to Lana Del Rey and HOLY SHIT LISTENING TO HER IN NEW FUCKING YORK>!?!?!?!?> dream come true. First we went to this cute little store, Idk how to explain it, it had a wide variety of stuff and was very minimalistic & cool. Josie got some stuff & we left and kept exploring. Eventually we found this goth / halloween store and we BOLTED for it. It had SO MANY CUTE OUTFITS. They had a whole corner lined with corsets, it was so cool. We didn't find anything we could afford there so we left & went to get some matcha tea. On our way to the tea place we stumbled across the fucking limelight and took a million pictures of it. anyways, back to the tea, I've never had it before! it was so good, I got a matcha lemonade drink, I loved it. We hung out there for a while before going outside to sit on a bench while Josie loaded another bowl before we walked down the street and just fuckin smoked there on the sidewalk. I WAS LIKE !!!!!! OMG and Josie was like ....sis. just like the first time we smoked, nobody walking by gave a shit. It was so weird. After getting baked we took the subway to 5th avenue & walked around before going to central park. The people in new york are so different from what I am used to seeing in my small town in TX. it's so interesting. Anyways, we started near the bottom of central park and worked our way up near the middle where the big lake & boat place is next to the fountain w the angel or whtever and the little underground area with a beautiful ceiling. after hanging out there for a while and smokin another bowl, we went further north for a while before taking the subway to little italy to pick up a food order for the guy I was staying with. After that we walked back to tribeca to the place I was staying and ordered wine and hung out. It was a really good day. Here's some pix from that day:

I hope most of that made sense, I've been drinkin wine tonite. :3 LAstly, for now, here are some pics I took in NYC compared to pics I took in GTA 4:

★ Last night I went to Numbers and it was one of the best nights I've had in a while. I felt okay about how I looked for once, danced to really good music, and hung out w/ my friends Amy, Taylee, Zia, and Luna. I also got to talk to someone I've been wanting to talk to for a while.. holy shit that interaction took my breath away, I was so nervous. I can't wait for next friday, I hope I see him again.

★ I got a small raise & started taking more shifts at work.


★ I'm planning on moving out and living with Amy, hopefully soon. In like the next 6 months maybe? Idk. I gotta start saving up! Amy and I were talking about doordashing together, I think that'd be fun.

bleh I have had 2 much wine, I'm tired. I think I'm going to get in bed and watch downtown till I fall asleep. I hope u are doing well! I might update my site again when I get up tomorro but idk.. we'll see B-)

Thursday, September 9, 2021 - 5:22 PM
× subject: blah blah blah
× mood: Stoned
× music: Isolated - Chiasm (listen)

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★ I think I want 2 start these off with recent pix of me so here's one I took of myself last night:

★ I stopped biting my nails a few months ago and it's nice to have long nails but trying to type this out without making typos is making me want to rip them all off.

★ KFC is still hell on earth.

★ I'm still going thru this goth vampire fantasy phase and I'm still lovin it. I recently bought Vampire The Masquerade: Bloodlines and it's been keeping me entertained for days.

★ Along with this vampire obsession I've also become reinvested in The Walking Dead. I bought the first 2 comic book compendiums and HOLY SHIT they are so fucking good. Fuck the show, the comic books are AWESOME. I can't believe what I've been missing out on all these years. I also replayed the games, I don't even need to say how good those are. I love zombie stuff, I miss the early 2010's zombie craze. I've also been playing a lot of Project Zomboid so I can create my own lil apocalypse scenarios. It's a nice escape.

★ I'm going to Numbers tomorrow night and I can't wait to dance and see my friends. I can't believe I've been going there almost every Friday for the past 4 years. The first time I went was like 5 or 6 years ago, my mom took me after taking me to an L7 concert. It was such a good night, I was like 15 and had never experienced night life like that before and instantly fell in love. Thanks mom. Learn more about numbers HERE

★ Songs I've been listening to lately: The Cure - Close To Me, Die My Darling - Pain 13, Chiasm - Isolated, Lacuna Coil - Swamped, Darling Violetta - A Smaller God.

That's about all for now, I'm gonna read some more of the TWD comic :-P see ya!

posts from 2018 till 9/2021 have been hidden because they're dumb!