Monday, October 14, 2019 - 7:10 pm

subject: I wanna go dancing.
mood: okay
music: The Killing Moon - Echo & the Bunnymen (listen)

"Under a blue moon I saw you,
so soon you'll take me.
Up in your arms,
too late to beg you or cancel it
though I know it must be the killing time.
Unwillingly mine.
up against your will,
through the thick and thin,
he will wait until
you give yourself to him.
In starlit nights I saw you,
so cruelly you kissed me.
Your lips a magic world,
your sky all hung with jewels.
The killing moon,
will come too soon."

Hellooo, I love this song so much. :'-) I've been listening to music and working on my website pretty much all day. I took my medication today (i haven't been keeping up smh) and i've been in a pretty good mood since I got back from class. I changed up a lot of stuff on my site! I added a bunch of pics to my pictures page & redesigned my guestbook, as well as a few other lil edits. I started setting alarms to take my medication for the first time ever so I can try to keep up w/ it & I hope it works. I can never remember to take my meds and it's a huge fuckin issue, I get really unstable when i'm off my meds. It's hard for me to function in social situations & I have manic episodes, as well as really unhealthy coping habits. All of that goes away when i'm on my meds but for some reason I can't for the fucking life of me remember to regularly take them. >:-0

Anyways, enough about that dumb shiiiiit. I just smoked and I'm listening to Zero 7 now, the song "In The Waiting Line". It's so good. That album is really good, I looove trip hop music a lot.

I wish it was 2001. LMAO, I'm so fucking irritating. I take any opportunity I get to talk about the past. Today in math, we were reviewing for our test tomorrow but it was pretty chill so I was just talking to a girl in my group about the early 2000's. It was so great, I think she said she was like 21 in 2000 so I was like "TeLl Me EvErYtHiNg AbOuT yOuR pAsT oMg Y2K!1! mYsPaCe!!1! tH0nGz!!". Ahhh, I'm so annoying but I love talking to people about the past. I love nostalgia!! And I love making people feel nostalgic. It's such a nice feeling.

Welllll that's all I have 2 say right now so i'll end this here B-) I hope you have a good day!! see ya :-)

Sunday, October 13, 2019 - 3:48 pm

subject: stoned and feelin nostalgic
mood: stoned
music: Drums And Riffs - Half-Life (listen)

hellooo, i just finished my homework & smoked a bowl. i'm chillin. i had a really good weekend! #'s on friday was a lot of fun, I spent the night dancin w/ Amy & Kiersten until like 2:30am. last night was also a lot of fun! Taylor, Haley, and Justin came over and we were planning on going to a play @ the college but nobody was there when we got there (10 mins before it started) and we weren't that interested so we leFT. we went 2 my old elementary and played on the playground for like an hour instead lmfao.

anyways... i've been playing garry's mod and half-life 2 a lot lately. I downloaded the Half-Life 2 beta maps last night and have been messing around w/ those and they're pretty cool. they make me feel really nostalgic, I love half-life 2 so much.

I wish I could've been this age in the early 2000's. I wish I could've experienced the earlier days of steam! When half-life 2 & counter-strike source were new and popular, and when the internet looked like this. I have no idea why i'm so drawn to that era but fuck man, I wish I could time travel.

tee hee i'll stop rambling now, I'm gonna go smoke more and browse the internet archive.. probably gonna play hl2 LMAO. i'll see u l8r & hope u have a good day

Wednesday, October 9, 2019 - 12:09 am

subject: today was nice
mood: stoned
music: Look On Down From The Bridge - Mazzy Star (listen)

hey, I hope you're having a good day! I'm about to go to bed but I felt like writing something before I did. today (yesterday technically) was really nice! I went to the mall with Amy for a few hours and got some new clothes because i've been really self conscious in everything I wear lately. not that buyin clothes is gonna fix my low self esteem but it's a temporary distraction lmao. anyways.. I got a pack of cigs instead of pods today for the first time in a long time cuz they're cheaper.. idk. I quit smokin cigs whenever I got my juul but i've been smoking cigs a lot recently (when I go out) so I said hmmmm?? yes. Cancer++.

Anyways, if you care, here's a few pix of the stuff I got!:

I got a couple shirts, pants, a jacket, underwear, and this star necklace that i'm in love with:

That's all I really have to say I guess, I was writing some dumb emotional shit about how unattractive I feel (while at the same time adding pix of me in my underwear for attention... ironic) but this isn't my application to be on dr phil so i'ma just end this here. I hope you have a good night and I hope life does something good for you soon, see you around. ♥

Monday, October 7, 2019 - 8:14 pm

subject: Listening 2 Sneaker Pimps & updating my site!
mood: stoned
music: Post-Modern Sleaze - Sneaker Pimps (listen)

Hello!! It's been a couple of weeks since i've updated my site! I've been all sad and shit but I just smoked and wanted to work on my site again so here I am. I haven't been doing too much lately other than going to school, hanging out w/ friends, and going out every weekend.

This past weekend was a lot of fun. I went to Numbers on Friday and Saturday. Friday was a normal classic 80's night and Saturday was Numbers 41st anniversary! Saturday was fucking amazing, they played all of my favorite songs (Including smack my bitch up) and I danced the whole night. Here's a pic from Friday nite:

In other news, I bought Tomb Raider 1 - 5 on Steam b/c they were all $1 recently and my obsession for raiding tombs has come back. I recently discovered the Tomb Raider Collectible Card Game and bought 3 quest packs off of eBay and I love it. I bought the Trapped in The Tombs, Into The Caves, and Neptune's Fury packs. Here's a pic of the first 2 packs:

I got those last week and Neptune's Fury came in the mail today.

There's more stuff I want 2 talk about but I wanna update a few other things on my site before I go to sleep so i'm gonna go do that. I hope you're doing well.

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