ahhhhh hello. I haven't updated my site in weeks... I have been sooooo depressed and unmotivated. I finally cleaned my room for the first time in over a month so maybe things are getting a little better.. until more time passes and depression consumes me and I rot for a few months. It is a never ending cycle of ups and downs. I really need a Texas trip, but I am too poor. I wish I was there right now.

I've been spending most of my time working, playing games with korrin and our friends, hanging out and drinking with sam, or rotting in bed. It's getting warmer so I see boat / lake days in my near future. I need to chug a buzzball and float in the lake to keep the suicidal thoughts at bay.

Well, I don't have much to say. I just noticed that I haven't been giving my website much love lately so I wanted to make some kind of update. I just painted my nails black and I am waiting for Korrin to get home so we can play 2v8 on Dead by Daylight. I think I'm gonna go smoke and watch some H2O Just Add Water until she's free. I hope you're doing well.. I will get out of this rut I'm in eventually and will make some major changes around here. Depression is a bitch :D

Edit 5/2: ITS WORKING YAY

Hiiii. I just got home from work. I worked w Sam and we got drinks after getting off. I've been trying to access my guestbook all day and the site isn't loading.. girl I hope my GB didn't die.. I will kill myself :D It's on the internet archive so the messages THANKFULLY aren't lost forever. I just hope that it's down and not dead..

Anywayyys. I don't have much to say, just that. I haven't been on my PC much lately since I have been playing Cyberpunk 2077 and the Oblivion remaster on PS5 a lot these past few days.. They have consumed me. I'm supposed to play games with Korrin tonight, I'm just waiting for her to respond :D

I finished watching all of Degrassi and idk what else to watch to keep me from killing myself so I am back to season one.. I think something is wrong with me :D I will make updates soooon when I am not depressed and rotting or playing games :P bye.

Hiiiii. I am pretty drunk :D I love music so much, here are some songs you should listen to.

Back in 2021 I discovered Downtown randomly on YouTube one night while on acid and I fell in love with the show. Here's a part of one of my posts from July of 2021:

"Whenever I tripped the other night I decided that I HAD to own it on DVD because the episodes that are on youtube are low quality & the music is taken out of some. I stumbled across this blogspot post from 2007 posted by the guy who made the show that has a link to buy it on DVD & I sent $25 without even checking to see if it was legit first... Turns out it is. I got lucky. I got really lucky because they've been selling it since 2007 and I found it in 2021 where his most recent comment (last month) says they only have a few left. I'm so happy."

And now it's unavailable! I can't believe how lucky I was to discover it at the perfect time. And then I went to New York for the first time that September and went to places from the show. I remember when I got onto the subway from JFK that took me to Canal St, I watched the "Train Pain" episode while sitting in one of those yellow and orange subway seats.

Anyways! Here's some pics of the box and DVD's:












That's all for now, I'll see you later!

(I made this)



This new era is going to be EVERYTHING. I am so ready for the new album.

"YOU WANT SEX WITH ME? UH-HUH
COME TALK TO ME, COME ON "





I made some new blinkies and uploaded them to my graphics page. Check them out!