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× subject: I ♥ Neocities × mood:  stoned × music: Emerge - Fischerspooner (listen) |
"You don't need to, emerge from nothingYou don't need to tear away." I love Neocities so much. I love how many creative people are here. There is an abundance of cool and unique sites to get lost in. Also everytime I see graphics I've made on someone elses site I get so happy. I am so lucky to be hereee I love everyone on here y'all are all so cool.   I should stop being shy and interact with ppl on here more.. I want web friends.  anyways tee heee I just smoked and got all sentimental.  Just wanted to write a lil post. I guess I should point out that I updated the layout of my social media page, big whoop. It's not perfect but I like it so it will remain. I took my Blingee off of there cuz the other day I COULD NOT get on blingee.com and thought it finally shut down?? but it's working now. I really need to save all of my old blingees from high school. I'm not worried about linking to it again cuz there's a link in my 'cool shit' section!well... I don't have too much to say at the moment. I am going to go play Emily is Away <3 and listen to music from 2008. I hope you have a good day! 
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× subject: blah blah blah × mood:  okay × music: words - piri & tommy (listen) |
"I know you're not the best with words butYou need to think before you speak Although you're trying to be honest You always say things you don't mean." Hellloooo. I hope you're doing well.I'm doing okay, I just took a shower and smoked a little bit. Now I want to ramble. Okay so I am going to give y'all a little part 2 for my last post. That easter thing that I went to was so awkward. I sat at the island in the kitchen for most of it. I felt so uncomfortable! I didn't know what to do with myself. I get speechless when I first meet people, I never know what the hell to say! There was a group of girls that are my age but I didn't really interact with them much. I feel like an outsider looking in, they seem so close. I also kept getting really sad thinking about my friends back in TX. I don't know that I'll be able to connect with these people like I did with them. WILL I ??? Who the hell knows.. ANYWAYS. One of them brought a tray of jello shots and I was like a moth to flame. I had never tried a jello shot before so I wasn't really sure what to expect. So I ate 7 of them... Alcohol hits differently when you go from living at sea level to living a few thousand feet above. I just remember sitting there listening to the CHAOS around me when all of the sudden I got tunnel vision and I went to the bathroom and just laid on the floor. It was windy as fuck and the sound of the air blowing on the house was soothing. I tried to make myself puke so I would feel better but nothing came out so I just sat there thinking about my actions. I think I was in there for like 30 minutes, I missed the little easter themed adult games they were playing. I felt really bad about it! I have made a horrible first impression TWICE with these people. The first time I met them was in 2022 when I came to visit my mom for a week during the summer. My moms friend was having a get together for 4th of july and there was like 20 - 30 people at her house. Honestly, that night would've gone smoothly if it wasn't for the red headed bitch that I assume was trying to fuck me?? All I can remember is the girl was up my ass all night and towards the end when everyone was in the living room chilling, she was practically sitting on my lap asking me about my life and trauma that I have??? I'm an open book and I was drunk so I just started WORD VOMITING all over her and crying and it was... embarassing. She was so persistent I really think she was trying to get with me but my gay ass was blissfully unaware. I woke up the next morning like .. hmmm.. why was she on top of me.... friends don't do that right... So yeah... I feel like I keep making a fool of myself around these people but they are really nice and I think that I am being dramatic. grrrrr. Anyways. I MISS MY FRIENDS. I feel so isolated here. I desperately need to go out and socialize and meet people. I think getting a job would be the best thing for me right now. I need to distract myself with something so I don't spend so much time wallowing in self pity. Welllll I've rambled enough. I started playing Fallout 76 again for the first time since 2019 and I'm kind of hooked for the time being. I think I'm going to go resize and upload images onto my pictures section and then play that for a little bit. I hope that you're doing well. I will see u later.
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× subject: .: Moved to New Mexico :. × mood: stoned × music: In Spite - Iris (listen) |
 
"In spite of the words I've left inside youIn spite of the wall I build we Can't tear down In spite of the way I run when Still you keep calling You feel like the only angel God's allowed." Hiiiiiiiiiiiii. I moved to New Mexico! I just got here yesterday. Of course my PC was one of the first things set up. I'm at my moms dining table right now, sitting by the window typing this. My mom is making mashed potatos for an easter thing we are going to at her friends house. I'm going to meet everybody there, I'm excited. Gonna have some good food, wine, and weed. Hell yeah. I LIVE IN A LEGAL STATE NOW !?!?!?!!?!?!??!!!!!! I CAN JUST GO TO THE STORE AND BUY WEED?!?!?! I am in heaven. The trip went really well. I ended up renting a Uhaul for the move and getting it was chaos. The place I reserved at didn't have the equipment so they redirected me to some western store in Alvin. Apparently they didn't even call the store to let them know so they were like uhhhhhhhhhh yeah we don't have that. So they sent me to this little building in the middle of nowhere that looked straight out of the 90s. It was cute and the people there all seemed a lil methed up LMFAO but they were sweet! My bank put a hold on my card so I had to call and raise my limit for the day so that I could drop a fat steaming $1600 on the Uhaul. I think that's the most money I have ever spent in my LIFE. We drove out of Alvin around 9/10 ish in the AM. We got to Amarillo, TX at like 10pm. We left the next morning around 9am and got to Bloomfield, NM around 5pm. Well, I don't have much time to ramble. I think we're about to leave. I'll make some more updates soon as I have a lot of time on my hands now! It feels so good to relax. Talk to you laterrrrr, I hope that you have a good day.
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× subject: * bustin' out! * × mood:  excited × music: The Metro - Berlin (listen) |
"I remember the letter wrinkled in my hand"I'll love you always" filled my eyes I remember a night we walked along the Seine Riding on the Metro I remember a feeling coming over me The soldier turned, then looked away I remember hating you for loving me Riding on the Metro I'm alone, sitting with my broken glass My four walls follow me through my past I was on a Paris train, I emerged in London rain And you were waiting there, swimming through apologies, sorry." Wazzzuuuupppp bitch. I hope you've had a good day. I just painted my nails so i'm typing this like that clip of peter griffin typing with long nails. I am going out tonight! In like an hour or so.. I'm ubering there with some old friends that I haven't seen outside of the club in a few years. I'm really excited!! I'm wearing my black juicy jacket with a pair of pocketless jeans from Target. (cuz they make my ass look juicy) Here's a pic of the look for tonight:    Wellllllll. I just wanted to pass some time! I need to go put my shoes on and GUSSY UP a lil bit. I can't wait to shake my ass tonight. I hope you have a good weekend! I'll catch up with you later! Byeeeeee.
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× subject: a little update × mood:  happy × music: Everybody Dance - Chic (listen) |
"Music never lets you downPuts a smile on your face Any time, any place Dancing helps relieve the pain Soothes your mind, makes you happy again Listen to those dancing feet Close your eyes and let go But it don't mean a thing If it ain't got that swing." Hey there! I hope that you're well. I just wanted to write a quick little update here to say that there are a lot of big changes going on in my life rn and that's why I haven't really been updating my site and probably wont very often until April. I have a lot of ideas for my website, and a lot of pages I want to update. I don't have the time rn! I guess I do.. sort of.. I just don't have the energy. I am moving to New Mexico this month! Well, I guess technically it's NEXT month but it'll be March tomorrow tee hee. I'm going through with my original plan that I had in like 2022.. I wrote about it some posts back. I am really overwhelmed! I don't have a dollar to my name right now LMFAO. It's cuz I just paid rent for the last time. I'm gonna be late on my bed & phone bill by a few days... oops. I'll just have to pay late fees which I should be able to afford once I get paid on the 8th. I mean, I am telling the truth that I am broke cuz most of my check went to rent.. but the way I found out I was broke was when I was getting ready for work this morning. I've been thinking about the resident evil movies a lot lately and decided to rent all of them on youtube to watch while I was at work today. When I went to rent the third movie I got THERE'S AN ERROR WITH YOUR PAYMENT METHOD!!! And I said uh oh. LMFAO. Money well spent honestly... I love those movies. I had to 123movies the third one before I ended up getting too busy at work to watch it. Man those movies make me feel so nostalgic. back in like 2011/2012 I had a dvd set of all of the movies released up to that point and I would watch them all on repeat. I had those bitches memorized. Anyways, I'm rambling now. I'm kind of stoned. I just ate sweet and spicy wings from whataburger with fries and jalapeno ranch sauce.. I am so full. well. I think I'm going to go play the sims 2 now. I will update this shit hole soon!! Not sure when but possibly after I've settled in NM! We'll see. I hope you're doing well. I will see u later! ♥
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× subject: somethin' I made ☆ × mood:  relaxed × music: A New Kind Of Love - Frou Frou (listen) |
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I really like this song. I made this using Windows Movie Maker on XP.
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