Thursday, August 20, 2020 - 7:20 PM
× subject: Talking about dreams
× mood: Okay
× music: To Catch a Thief - Lovage (listen)

So recently I started a dream journal so that I could remember more of my dreams + I remember reading that it's a good way to help with lucid dreaming somehow or somethin idk. Anyways, I usually don't remember my dreams because I smoke to fall asleep so a majority of dreams I remember are the ones I have when I fall back asleep after I first wake up. This morning I finally realized I was dreaming and it was the most surreal feeling I've ever experienced, it was like I was in VR or something. I was walking in a grassy field looking down when it just hit me that I was having a dream and I immediately tried to start flying but I only hovered a few feet off the ground before waking up. It was short as hell but I now know that it's something I can do or whatever... I want to lucid dream more. Annyyways, after that I fell back asleep and had a dream that I wasn't in control of where I was on an airplane sitting next to Tina Fey. I told her that I'd never seen the office (which she has nothing to do with??) and then the pilot came onto the speaker to say that we'd be landing in 15 minutes. I was all happy about it and then RIGHT when he finished talking the plane did a fucking backflip and nosedived into the ground. I woke up in a panic with my heart racing, but it felt like I had already been awake for a couple hours... It was really weird. My dreams are always stressing me out, it's always either a fucked up version of situations in my life or something that has to do with planes / flying. I guess that flying is my biggest fear, right before the ocean. Yeah, fuck the ocean. That bitch is way too big, makes me nervous. I don't swim at the beach.

Tuesday, August 4, 2020 - 10:45 AM
× subject: chillin'
× mood: Stoned
× music: In Spite - Iris (listen)

Hey! I haven't updated my website in a few months holy shit. I just woke up & thought about my website and wanted to make some changes. (including getting rid of all my old posts on here)

I haven't been doing too much these past few months. I went to New Mexico to see my mom last month which was really nice, I miss being there a lot. I haven't done much other than that, I've spent most of my time at home chillin. I miss going dancing every Friday night! I have nothing to look forward to anymore :-/

I don't really know what else to say so I'm ending this here. :-P Gonna make a few changes to my website then play Fallout 4 for a bit. I hope that you're doing well.