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Wednesday, April 8, 2020 - 10:38 PM
× subject: Drunk thoughts
× mood: Drunk
× music: Celestica - Crystal Castles (listen)


Hello! I hope you're having a good day! I'm doing okay, sort of. I mean, I'm good! I'm drunk, listening to Crystal Castles, and making stuff on photoshop. In general I'm not doing very well, my mental health has gone down the drain, I can't remember the last time I took my meds. I am constantly screwing myself, I need my meds and I need to make an appointment w/ my psychiatrist but he does appointments through video calls now which gives me hella anxiety so I just haven't contacted them. Oops.

Anyways.. moving on. (before this good mood turns into a manic episode.) I..... Uh. I don't know what to talk about. I don't really update this part of my site much anymore because I don't think anyone cares + some stuff I talk about is embarassing to read back to myself. Idk. I'm a fuckin' emotional wreck I don't need to be tip tap typing my feelings out to the world wide web when I get in those moods smh.

Uhhh anyways I hope I don't sound stupid.. I haven't drank in a while and I'm pretty inebriated and was just in the mood 2 type type type. I might wrap this up and browse the internet archive, I need ideas for updating my site! I also brought back all of my old thoughts (linked below) because I'm drunk and my low self esteem didn't stop me so idk how long I'll keep em up but .. whatever. Idk. Nobody cares!!!! Blah..

Okay well, I have nothing else to say.. not that I really had anything to say to begin with I just wanted to update my site! I genuinely hope that you're doing well, please stay safe. I will write again L8r ♥ see ya

"Follow me into nowhere, woven with the utmost care. If I'm lost please don't find me, if I jump let me sink."

Tuesday, March 10, 2020 - 2:18 PM
× subject: Took LSD, entered The Matrix
× mood: Stoned
× music: I Bet You Look Good On The Dancefloor - Arctic Monkeys (listen)


  I'm liking how I organized my last post so I think I'm going to continue doing it like that.   I hope you're doing well! To be honest I have not existed these past few days, LMAO.  My brain feels like scrambled eggs. I also discovered that I have a deep love for  vanilla honey bunches of oats cereal... yum. Anyways, here's what I did this weekend:

Friday: Played The Sims 2 all day and went to Numbers (duh ) with Amy and Kiersten.

Saturday: I woke up feeling like shit because I was hungry so I texted Amy and we went to Burger King. While we were there we started talking about Build-A-Bear and spontaneously decided to go to the mall and buy one. I got a teddy bear and Amy got a rabbit, I named mine Mr. Pickles and he smells like cupcakes. It was so much fun. Here's some pix from that day:



Sunday: Took LSD for Kiersten & Korrin's birthday with them and Jozelyn. I haven't done it since 2017, it was so much fun. The LSD came in a sour patch kid and I felt it pretty strongly for about 12 hours. The lasting effects didn't wear off until I woke up this morning. There was so much going on, we were all acting like crackheads hahaha. I just remember telling everyone that I was a real estate agent. The funniest moment was when I accidentaly trapped Jozelyn's cat in her pantry. Joz opened the door, the cat bounced out, and she just says "... That's showbiz!". It was so dumb but I was on the kitchen floor crying in laughter. Here's some pix from that night:



Monday: I didn't sleep from Sunday - Monday so those days kinda blended into one. At like 7AM I started watching New York Goes to Work on youtube and finished the entire first season around 10AM and decided to go home after that. Walking outside was like leaving the vault in Fallout 4. I had to get my eyes checked at 4PM so I slept for a couple hours until I had to get ready, I felt disconnected from reality & really depressed. Amy made everything better though, we hung out and she went to my eye appointment with me. Afterwards we went to a small get together / bbq thing and I underestimated Jack Daniels as it was my first time trying it and had 3 shots at once. It's safe to say I was actin' a fool. It was a lot of fun though, everyone was so nice and so much fun and there was a ton of good food. I passed out on the couch for like an hour before we left. I got home around 1AM and ate some animal crackers before passing the fuck out.

Today: I was supposed to go to IKEA with my grandparents but my grandpa isn't feeling well. I slept in until 12, took a shower, smoked a bit, now i'm here. Hello. I'm probably just gonna play Half-Life 2 and Counter-Strike: Source today, I'm feelin' nostlagic.

Uhhh wellll... that's about all going on right now. I'm gonna go get something to eat, I will update again next week. I hope you have a good day! See ya l8r.

"Oh, there ain't no love, no Montagues or Capulets. Just banging tunes and DJ sets and dirty dance floors and dreams of naughtiness!"

Sunday, March 1, 2020 - 8:49 PM
× subject: my weekend ★
× mood: Feelin' nostalgic
× music: More Than A Woman - Aaliyah (listen)


Hello! I've been updating my website all day and barely got anything done. Where did the time go? Anyways... I had a busy weekend! I've been driving all over the place these past few days. Here's a rundown of what I did:

Friday: I finally got my oil changed. I also went out to lunch with Amy, her mom, and her niece and had a really good time. Afterwards me and friends went to Numbers for Amy's 22nd birthday! Here's a pic from that night:




Saturday: I slept over at my friend Andi's house in Katy. We drank wine, hung out, and I got to meet her new baby. I had a lot of fun, it's always a good time when I see her. ♥

Today: I've just been chillin'. Smoking and listening to my favorite songs while working on my webpage. I also started writing random thoughts in a spiral notebook again, I'd like to start doing that more.

That's about all I have to say for right now, not that anyone really cares! I hid all of my old posts from over the past two years but I think I'm going to make a page of old posts that don't make me want to claw my eyes out from embarassment / sadness I'll link it below when / if I do! I hope you're doing well, See ya' L8r.

"Constant pleasure, no scale can measure. Secret treasures, keeps on getting better. Do you wanna roll with me?
We can go to foreign lands, your hand in my hand. Do you wanna ride with me? We can be like Bonnie & Clyde, me by your side."


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