Hello. Holy shit, my life has been crazy these past few days! I'm going to start with the work drama. I'm a liiittle tipsy so forgive me if I don't make sense or something..

Okay so this all starts back in December. I went to work one morning on a Saturday at 6am and this random old dude was there. While we worked together, we ended up chatting casually. I clocked him as gay as soon as I met him cuz he wouldn't stop staring and talking to me. I briefly trained him over the span of a week or 2. We talked a lot as we worked, about being gay and other random shit. I remember expressing multiple times that I am the kind of person that can't have sex with people without some sort of emotional connection.

Anyways.. I might have led him on.. I never stated that I wanted him in any romantic or sexual way.. maybe I was just a little too nice and open with him and gave him the wrong idea. So when his training at my store came to an end, he got my phone number from a board in our break room, WITHOUT my permission. These are the texts he sent me:



Obviously I didn't respond. I was not and still am not interested. Also, if you can't tell, he meant to say "dick show-and-tell". GROSS. Also I love that he is twice my age and said "OR NOT"... Like I owe him something? FUCK OFF!

Anywayyysss.. Dealing with creepy old men is not something that is new to me. Ignoring them and moving on has always worked. I never told my manager about it, just gossiped with my coworkers because I thought it was a funny story. I never thought I would see him again. Then, a few weeks ago, I pull up to work at 6am and see his truck. To preface this, it was a day where we unload truck, so I was high as shit. I always get stoned before those shifts because I know I will be doing a lot of physical shit. Smoking makes me anxious, so I sat in my car for like 5 minutes FREAKING OUT.

I had to talk myself down. Reminded myself that I am young and hot and capable of standing up for myself. I AM NO LONGER A DOORMAT! I went in and totally avoided him as much as I could. At one point during the shift, he cornered me and said something along the lines of "Are you like.. mad at me or something?". I sternly responded "No." and went back to stocking shelves.

He was at my store for like 2 weeks, until yesterday, since he's being fired. ANYWAYS. That was the only interaction I had with him. I ignored him and stayed clear of his sight as much as possible.

Recently I worked w/ one of my favorite coworkers. We were talking about the situation when the customer I was checking out decided to chime in. He said "You wanna know something about (creepy old man)? He's fucking insane. Stay away from him." My coworker and I looked at each other and then back at him. We were like "How do you know that?". And the guy goes "I'm his neighbor". THAT'S ALL THE INFO WE GOT. AHHH. This leads us to Monday night.

So I was off Monday night. He was initially supposed to close with me Wednesday night. My manager had known that I REALLY didn't want to be around him, but didn't know the extent of things. Thankfully she managed to switch his shifts. Instead of making him close with me on Wednesday, he was off that night and closed on Monday.

To sum this part up, he got into a heated argument with another one of my coworkers. He went crazy, called her a fucking bitch, and just acted like a child in general. I wasn't there, this is just all I have heard from others so far. Another coworker of mine had to separate them and mediate... HE IS NOT PAID ENOUGH FOR THAT! (I'm being vague just in case, y'know? Maybe I'll add names and more detail when this situation is farrr in my past. Like when I move back to TX maaayybe later this year.)

Anywayyys. (I say anyways a lot) The coworker that had to mediate called and informed my manager about the situation. He also mentioned that she should ask me about the texts that the old man sent me... That leads us to Tuesday morning. I wake up, streeetch, turn on my space heater, and start scrolling through IG reels. That's when I get this text from my manager, plus my response:



I sent the screenshot and she responded with "Let's just say shit hit the fan". I FREAKED OUT! I didn't know anything! I ended up driving to the store on my day off to get details. My manager only knew what she was told, so I didn't get the full story until I worked with the coworker who mediated. That was last night, Wednesday. So yeah, suffice to say, creepy old man got fired. Everyone had to write statements, he was reported to HR, his boss was notified. My manager said that the texts he sent me were the nail in the coffin for him. He shouldn't have been a weirdo!!!

Now I just have to hope that he isn't going to try to get revenge on me. Maybe I am just paranoid, but y'know, men will kill over being rejected. Not to mention that I also got him fired. He was training to be a store manager, I basically just pulled the rug out from under him or whatever. IDK! He shouldn't have been a fucking creep.

ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYS. In lighter news, I am going to Texas soon! I'm visiting for a week in March, and for 2 weeks in April. I am so beyond excited to see my friends. I CAN'T WAIT AHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay, this post has gone on for tooo long. Before I go, today I am taking myself on a movie date to see the new Silent Hill movie! I'm gonna get candy from my job, alcohol from the store, and then get cross faded as hell in my car in the parking lot before going in. I might order a pizza inside.. or maybe just get popcorn.. or both? We'll see! I'll post about that experience and my opinion on the new movie soon! OKAY. I want to smoke, have another drink, and sing along to my favorite songs for a bit before going to bed. I WILL SEE YOU LATER! BYE SEXY! LISTEN TO THIS SONG YOU WHORE:

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Sam reminded me recently about Snapchat deleting memories if you don't pay for a subscription. I am finally being forced to download my memories. I'm going to keep them on my external hard drive with all of my other digital memories. I should have a backup drive.. The thought of 15 years of memories being lost due to a tech error scares me a lot. Or what if I lose it? I hold onto memories so tightly, I can't bring myself to delete anything. A meaningless accidental screenshot? I'll never delete it.

Snapchat allows you to download your data and I started with my chat logs. 10 years of them! Well.. I stopped using it around 2020, so more like 5 years. Almost every text I have sent from when I was 15 to 20. I went through some of them yesterday. I laughed, cried a lot, CRINGED at how I typed, and was SO confused by so many memories that I have forgotten about until now. I went through old group chats, messages with old friends, etc. It made me so sad.

It's interesting to see how different things were. 10 years is a long time, and a lot of things have changed. I have changed SO MUCH. I was so mean back then.. and the worst part is, I thought I was being funny. Reading some of my old messages.. I am NOT surprised that I don't talk to most of those people anymore.. well.. they don't talk to me. Because I was a dick. And not to mention all of the men that should be on a LIST.. I found the chats between me and the 21 year old who took me on a date when I was 15. He taught me how to makeout in his car in the parking lot of a mall while Halsey played from his radio. I will never forget that. He's gotta be 30 or 31 now.. Retrospect is a craaaazy thing. What the hell was I doing? I NEEDED ADULT SUPERVISION.

Anyways. I added a new shrine for one of my favorite shows, Dolly Pond, check it out here! It's a really good show, I relate to the protagonist a lot. I don't have much else to talk about right now. I'm going to shower, eat, and hang out with Korrin. I hope you're doing well.



"You could throw me a bone. If I get too close you wake me up, remind me softly to go. If I forget won't you wake me up? Remind me not to feel a thing. Keep the dream tight. I can't feel a thing, my dreams are so tight. Why wouldn't I stand in line tonight? "

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I lied. I did not go to bed. I have been blasting music and working on my site and making shit in photoshop. A couple weeks ago I offered to make a website button for my friend Taylor and I am finally getting around to it.. I'm so lazy smh. Here's 2 that I've made so far:


They probably look better on a darker background...
whatever.. I'm still figuring out what to make :3
I'm not going to send them to her until I finish making all the buttons I plan to make :P Also ummm Taylor if you're seeing this before I send you what I make.. hello.. no u didn't. LMFAO. She sent a lot of pics that I am using to make a ton of options for her to choose from! Click here to check out her website! Anyways.. I should probably go to bed now.. It's 4 in the morning. See ya later :D

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I got home from work a few hours ago, had a couple drinks, and decided to update the answers to my "myspace surveys" page. I haven't since 2024, so a lot of answers have changed. If you want a peek into my mind or whatever, check it out here!

There's some juicy questions such as:

"What's on your desk?"
"Have you ever fallen for a friend?"
"Do you miss your last relationship?"
"How do you want to die?"

There's over 200 questions. Check it out! Copy the questions, answer them yourself, and put them on your website! I love to see other people's answers. Visit the page to see more. I'm going to club BED. With DJ pillow. GOODNIGHT! (I will link to my old answers from 2024 on that page later!)

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"Home alone
I check the doors
Keep this house locked up
It's such a shame
I'm in bed without you by my side
I never wanted to go
You never wanted to wave your goodbyes
Now all I love is gone
Gotta wait till I hit the sky

I wanna go home
I wanna go home now
I wanna go home
We'll pop some popcorn
Watch a movie
I'd like to kiss you
If you let me

Home alone
My chastity belt stays untouched
But it's such a shame
I'm in bed without you by my side
I never wanted to go
You never wanted to wave your goodbyes
Now my legs are closed
But for you I'd ride it into the sky

I wanna go home
I wanna go home now
I wanna go home
We'll pop some popcorn
Watch a movie
I'd like to kiss you
If you want me to"

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Ahh okay so my high ass was looking through old posts on here from 2018/2019 and I stumbled across an old guestbook service I used to use and forgot about. Check it out here.

If you were on Neocities back in that time, you might remember dissolvedgirl or Sol Pais. I mean, even if you weren't on here, you might have heard of her back then. I discovered her site when I was still pretty new on here, I thought she was cool. I mentioned her after everything happened in my old posts, here's a screenshot I took in 2019 when I realized she had followed me:



Anyways, the first post in that old guestbook I discovered is from someone named Sol. And the date sort of matches up with stuff I said in my old posts from 2019. I might be wrong, but I don't know.


It's nothing crazy. I just wanted to mention it because, for some reason, she's been on my mind a lot lately. I don't know anyone personally who can relate so I'm just rambling about it here. Does anyone else remember when her website was mysteriously updated after her death? I wish things could've been better for her. R.I.P. Sol.



Also, I'm archiving old posts from 2025 and updating the theme of this page. I'm feeling nostalgic so I think I'm going to use the 2004 code from my moms Livejournal that I used back in 2019. I hope you're doing good, I'll see you later.

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Howdy. Happy new year! It's 2026! It feels so weird. The years are starting to get scary.. too futuristic. I don't know. Time moves on so fast.

News years eve was pretty good. Sam and I made plans to hang out at my place. We debated on going to the casino but decided not to. I still haven't been to a casino yet! And I live right down the street from one.. anyways. I bought a bunch of snacks while I was at work. I got Chips Ahoy, Honey Nut Cheerios, Munchies, Gardettos, and some Rice Krispies. I picked up Sam when I got off at 10 and we went to Speedway to buy drinks before going to my house.

It was a lot of fun. We drank, laughed, and watched youtube before midnight. My neighbor was shooting fireworks at 12 so we stood outside and watched for a bit. Afterwards we got really stoned, put on the movie Thirteen, and painted for a few hours. I took her home around 4:30 in the morning. I ended up in bed around 6 and slept until 3pm. I had a really good night.

I've just been lazy today. I was off and I am tomorrow as well. I played DBD and Roblox with Korrin for most of today.. and now I am here.. Hello. I don't have much else to say.. I'm pretty tired. I've been meaning to make a button for one of my closest friends Taylor. I just haven't been working on my website or making things in photoshop lately.. grr. You can find her website here! I've known her for almost 14 years now. I used to talk about her in my old posts from 2018/2019, we were very close in high school. It's a different Taylor than the one I talked about back in 2023.. Idk if I ever made that clarification..

ANYWAYS. BYE! LISTEN TO THIS SONG:

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