my thoughts

× subject: Documentaries to watch
× mood:

stoned
× music: I Can Change ★ LCD Soundsystem (listen)

Hi! I've been making a few small edits around here tonight, and before I head off to go balls deep in Fallout 3, I wanted to share some of my favorite documentaries.

The first is "Enron: The Smartest Guys In the Room". It's a very interesting watch, and it got my attention because I am from south of Houston, Texas. Just rich assholes fucking people in the ass, check it out!

Click here to watch!

The second is Fahrenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore. I really, REALLY like this one. It ties in with the Enron one a bit. I love learning about September 11th. I've been to the memorial a couple of times so far. FUCK BUSH!

Click here to watch! (It's free cuz it was a livestream. Skip ahead for the full film.)

And the last one is The Woman Who Wasn't There. This one is SO GOOD! I also recommend reading the book. HOLY SHIT I LOVE THIS ONE. It's about a bitch lying about surviving the attacks on 9/11, IT IS INSANE.

Click here to watch!

I'll see you later ♥

× subject: I love this song part 2943854286
× mood:

stoned
× music: I Can Change ★ LCD Soundsystem (listen)

"Tell me a line, make it easy for me
Open your arms
Dance with me until I feel all right

It's good in the dark, good in the dark
But into the lover's light
Here comes another fight

So ring the alarm, ring the alarm
Bore me and hold me and cling to my arm
Here it comes, here it comes

And what you're asking me now, disastrous now
Hoping and hoping and hoping
The feeling goes away"

× subject: CHRISTMAS TIME BITCH
× mood:

stoned
× music: Lloyd, I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken ★ Camera Obscura (listen)

Hey what's up? I decorated my website for christmas last night! I changed the music that plays in the background to music from The Sims 1. Scroll to the very bottom of my home page to see the pianist, VERY hard at work. I spent a lot of time last night smoking and staring at my website. I fucking love christmas. The piano music goes along so nicely. Also, I don't give a shit that thanksgiving hasn't even happened yet. Turkey WHO? I wanna jingle Santa's hairy balls already.

Anyways, the Faerybabyy concert is in a couple of days! I booked our hotel room yesterday. I had enough to put us in a kind of nice hotel! THERE IS FREE BREAKFAST! Which, if we're going to get up to what we did last time in ABQ.... we're gonna need it. We're leaving early on Thursday to give us time to check in and get ready. I'll probably bring my video camera and record a video like I did for Greyday. Speaking of that, I took the greyday video down cuz I forgot to cut out some parts of my fangirling and.. it's embarassing. I'd rather it not be up anymore. I was DRUNK and EXCITED. I know damn well I'm going to be too busy crying and singing along to record shit, so we'll see about that!

Anyways, I think I'm going to take a shower annnnd.. I don't know. Entertain myself before going to work in a few hours. I hope that you're doing well, I will see you later.

× subject: updates
× mood:

stoned
× music: Neighborhood ★ The Sims 1 (listen)

Howdy. I am here to say that I finally changed my 'About Me' page. It's all text now, so it's a bit more simple than it was. I like it, for now! There's a little sidebar where you can jump to certain areas. Nothing crazy! Just something FRESH and NEW. My next objective is making the pics page look better. I think that page has been the same for at least 5 years now.... It loads sooo slow. I removed some images to help with that, but I need to do more. I was thinking about separating them into categories, kind of like how I have my 'Cool Shit' page. Speaking of which, I was planning on revamping that.. eventually.

I think I am done working on my site for rn, I want to play games. Before I go, I wanted to mention the day I had recently! On Friday I had a meeting at work in the morning, so I was awake at a decent time. A few hours after the meeting, I decided to take myself out. ALONE! I always rely on having somebody with me to go out and do shit. I decided to push through the anxiety and I went to this antique store that Kiersten and I went to when she was here, The Dusty Attic. I ended up buying Final Destination 2 on DVD, an old beanie baby, and a star shaped candle holder. I'll upload pics of them soon, I am too lazy right now!

Anyways, when I left I decided to get some food. I went to The Chile Pod and ate by myself! In my almost 24 years of living, I've never gone out to eat by myself. I got a grilled cheese BLT and had a couple vodka sprites. I have no idea what I was so nervous about all these years, I really enjoyed myself that day. I was on my own time, and didn't have to worry about keeping anyone but myself entertained. It was GREAT. I want to do things like that more often. I like hanging out with myself :D

Well, that's all I have to say for now. I think I'm going to play Fallout 3 for a bit. I'll see ya later.

× subject: New webcam page!
× mood:

tired...
× music: Commodore Rock ★ Ladytron (listen)

Hey! Just making a quick post to say I uploaded the webcam pages! Check em out here. It's nothing special, just some old pics. I want to make some other updates, but it is tooo early in the morning to stress myself out with my mid HTML skills.

I can't believe I spent 2 hours trying to troubleshoot what I thought was going to be a quick simple issue with my code. I was trying to make this page more.. creative.. I guess? I had the text in different places and had gifs everywhere. But the code I have on this page right now is not WORKING WITH ME! It's a heavily edited version of my moms Livejournal code from like ... 2003? 2004? And I have verrryyy limited basic knowledge of HTML. My whole website feels kind of ... jerry rigged.. y'know what I mean??

I don't know what I'm rambling about. I think i'm going to smoke, play The Matrix: Path of Neo for a bit, and then come back here when my mind is less foggy. It's not even 8AM! Why the hell am I awake...

× subject: I am STILL ALIVE
× mood:

Baked
× music: Paco! ★ Ladytron (listen)

"Ground floor, ladies' clothes, sportswear, stationery
First floor, kitchenware, furnishings, confectionery
Second floor, children's toys, back to school, mini-pool
Fourth floor, electronic, fake antiques, and lingerie

I saw your face on the black-and-white screen
I knew your name from the checkout machine
You don't have to spend, you just have to pretend"

Hiiii sexy bitch.

I hope you're doing well! It's been 5 fucking days since I have made an update here, that's the longest I've gone in a while. And that was just random maintenence, It's been longer since I've made an actual update, like adding a new page. I've been overwhelmed with work lately. I've been stressed, my mind has been in a haze for the past week or so. Although, the paychecks make up for it. I'm going to be able to get Sam and I a hotel room for a concert later this month in ABQ, I am looking forward to it more than words can express.

Blah, I am stoned. I had a completely different post typed out before replacing it with this. I was sober and very deep in thought about relationships past and present, platonic and romantic. I started word vomiting! Then I got stoned, reread it, and went oh no.. chopping block time. Some things should stay in my personal notes! Or just in my head...

But anyways, here I am!

After my last post, I decided to make a page for a collection of my old webcam pics from 2019 to I think 2021. I created a design for it but never uploaded it, so after I am done rambling I am going to finish it up and link it on my "cool shit" page. Speaking of that page, I think it's time for a revamp! I think it worked when I had less stuff linked there, but it's getting full. There are so many pages that I need to finish before doing that buuuutttt I am all over the place. Like when am I going to finish the recipes page.. or update my "about me" page?? OR FINISH THE SHRINES?? LMFAOOOO I think my issue is starting multiple tasks before finishing my initial one.

Well, I could waste time rambling, but I think I should get to making some updates around here before I hang out with Sam in a few hours. I have tomorrow off. I would say that I am going to spend it working on my website, but I am not going to lie LMFAO. We'll see how I feel when I wake up. Check out this song by Ladytron that I have had on repeat, and have a good day, BITCH!

EDIT: Well I spent 2 fucking hours trying to update the style of this page, but I could not for the life of me get it the way I wanted it. I give up! I'm annoyed. I need to create a completely new page with a new style. I'm coming back to this later. I'm gonna go hang out with Sam :D

Edit 2: I have some time before we hang... I'm gonna do somethin else around here before I leave...

× subject: .:'+"`* weBcaM piX *`"+':.
× mood:

Relaxed
× music: Rise FM ★ GTA III (listen)

Howdy. I just took some webcam pics and wanted to post them. Pretend they were taken in 2002. I don't know :D

I'm just hangin out and listening to music now. I think I might make those pics into a gif for my home page. I don't have much else to say, see ya later!

Also, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

× subject: I'm alive
× mood:

stoned
× music: Flicking Your Switch ★ Ladytron (listen)

"Stole your Visa card and took a trip downtown.
I don't really care that there's people around.

9-2-3, 8-1-6 is the sound of them flicking your switch.
8-1-5, 1-9-4, does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

Does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

I'm so happy that you're coming out to play.
Now I'm only one cocaine decision away.

3-6-9, 2-4-8 is the sound of them closing your gate.
8-1-5, 1-9-4, does this mean you don't trust me anymore?

Does this mean you don't trust me anymore?"

What's up.

I am finally back to make some changes around here after being kind of MIA for the past almost 2 weeks. I've been in a depressed state since Kiersten left but I had a pretty good day today. I will be detailing my moms wedding / Kiersten visiting in a seperate post, probably tomorrow since I have the day off. Plus I am too stoned right now to go into details about anything,

I just got home from work!

I switched back to my 1920x1080 monitor last night and it feels weird using it again. I feel so out of the loop with my website! I was looking around and some pages are starting to feel kind of stale. I feel like my about page is ugly and needs revamped! It needs... somethin.. My website is giving ... box .. it's giving < table > ... I want to experiment with some other styles...

What i'm doing right now:

★ Archiving the posts on this page because there are too many.
★ Updating the iPod ... maybe
★ Uploading a few new pics to my pics section
★ Updating my about me page? Maybe.

What I plan for tomorrow:

★ Upload pics / make a post about moms wedding and kiersten visiting
★ UPDATE THE VAULT. It's been almost a year, I SUCK. I have some links to share.
★ Renovate my about me page, if I don't tonight

I'll probably think of more to do while making updates tomorrow.

In my depressed state, I went to Entertainmart the day after Kiersten left and spent $41 on Xbox games. I'm broke. :D I got these:

THPS2x has had me in a trance the last few days, the Unreal game is alright, and Remember Me has me HOOKED. I went in completely blind. I'm on Episode 4, I think. I bought a lot more shit while Kiersten was here, I'll probably write about that tomorrow. Okay, that is enough rambling. I am making some edits around here and then dicking around on my Xbox for a bit before going to bed. I'll see ya tomorrow!

EDIT 10/24: I ended up playing The Sims 2 on my PS2 all day :D oops

WARNING: MY OLD POSTS ARE EMBARRASSING. CRINGE-WORTHY.
I die inside when I read them. Why am I making them public again...

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